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Day 801

Udhagamandalam , Tamilnadu                      June  29 , 2010                Tue  10 : 23 PM

Ever so often when we move away from the ‘hustle and bustle’ of life, we get that unique opportunity to hear our own breathing. Here, up in the Nilgiri mountains as the clouds descend upon the tops of the peaks and gently drift down towards the valley, the grey mist giving this little town an opaque disposition, I get to hear my breath ! Nothing else. A thin piercing tone that at times envelopes our ears when we come out after a sudden loud bang, persists around you. I think they have given it a name. But the much cliched phrase has been ‘the sound of silence’. In this volume of silence, and the greenish blue presence of the hills, the tapping of the key board is like a hammer pounding its heavy head on the wooden table that bears the burden of my laptop.  Nothing moves, nothing dares to make sound. Far away in the distance a dog barks. Its gentle echo fades away as swiftly as the next word forms itself on the post .. and then quiet again.

Most of my stays in Ooty had always been confined to the Savoy Hotel, a quaint warm and cozy residence with an old world charm about it. But it is booked over and I am at a different locale now, closer to the shoot site for convenience. And yes, as you can well observe the connectivity for the net is thriving. In fact it is surprisingly good. BSNL zindabad !! Thats the Government Broadband service.

Ever since the opening up of the economy and the invitation to privatization in several spheres, we have been attracted to the ‘private’ and not the ‘establishment’. But there are still the public sector units of the country which function and flourish and with some degree of efficiency too. Today for example has been an exceptional experience. The flight in from Mumbai was IA, the domestic national carrier and now BSNL for telephony. Competition I guess augurs well for betterment in service.

Time passes by so rapidly. As I drove up the winding road up from Coimbatore on the plains where the flight lands, to the Hills, I could vividly remember all those wonderful moments spent with the family, when I would bring them all up for our summer shootings. It used to be Kashmir earlier, but as it succumbed to disturbances, productions started looking for alternatives and Ooty became a preferred destination. The Southern Film Industry was always here in large numbers – Ooty being almost central to the Tamil, Telugu, Kannada and Malayalam film sectors. And then it got invaded by the Mumbai Film Industry.

When I think back on those days I can only remember Abhishek and Shweta as little kids, flushed pink in the tan of the bright sun, covered in woolies and striding happily on the pony rides in and around the city. There are lakes around and about and dense forests of all various kinds of trees. And then the soft rounded off hills, sandpapered almost to a smoothness, quite unlike most hill stations. The British were so good at discovering these sites and then building them into beautiful cities to come away to from the oppressive heat of the summer. The architecture of those times in official residences, schools, churches still remains, but sadly all the fresh constructions have no coordination with them in their aesthetics. Its becoming more cement than wood and tiles and sloping roofs and thats a pity. Some regions though, distant from the main town have maintained their heritage and they are always a joy and pleasure to see, but otherwise its getting sore at places.

One such location that has remained pristine is the town of Wellington, some kilometers from Ooty. Its where the Army College is based for the seniors in the Army and its culture and discipline and protocol is maintained with typical military efficiency. Close by it, is the town of Coonor, another pretty location for many a retired army officer or administrative head. Quiet and peaceful. Within these picturesque surroundings is based the story of my character in the film – a retired teacher, who’s son is with the Armed Forces. And my entire work shall be conducted here in this peaceful haven.

Silence around us in peaceful sublime,

Forgetting what remains in other clime.

Would it were so in perpetuity,

Life, work, would prosper ingenuity.

What is it about silence that invokes poetry ?? Another one that came just off the cuff ..!!

In quietude and peace ..

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 29, 2010
Day 800

Jalsa , Mumbai                         June  28 , 2010                       Mon 11 : 40 PM

There is a certain joy in giving. Giving to those that have remained sincere and faithful. That have shown strength of belief. At the AGM this morning for AB Corp, that is what I encountered with my share holders. Through thick and thin, mostly thin, they have remained with me and with support and compassion for my conditions for years. So when I declare a dividend for them there is a certain joy in giving. I am happy to have announced a 20% dividend. We are a small company, with small profits, but profits all the same and to share that with them is such satisfaction. Thank you shareholders for being with me and for giving me all your good wishes and support !

Yaaaaaaaa !!! Haaaaa !!! Brazil just scored against Chile !!! What a header into goal !!

Sorry about that.

OOOOHhhaaaaaaa hha YYYeeeaaaa ooohahaaaaa !!! Another goal !!! What magic !! Poetry !!

Brazil 2 Chile 0 … what a game !! Apologies just cannot contain my exuberance !!

Soooo … half time now and time to get back to you with greater concentration.

Tomorrow morning its off to Ooty for the Mohan Lal film. Mohan Lal has been and still is one our most incredible talents, from Kerala and the Malayalam film industry. I have admired him and his work through many years of my existence in this profession. He has a unique body and face language. You get the feeling that he is doing nothing, yet it results in the most amazing results – natural, without effort and effective. Just such a joy to watch him.

If you remember I had been to the function in Kerala in celebration of Resul Pookuty, the Oscar winner from ‘Slumdog’. It was there that Mohan Lal a guest at the occasion had come up to my room with his director Major Ravi to put up this idea and this proposal. My admiration for Mohan Lal could never have made me refuse this offer and so I do it for him. A few weeks later they all came to meet up with me in Mumbai to set up all the details for the shoot and after that was over put up the inevitable question that most producers do of remuneration ! I had laughed at them. What ? Charge you for working for 3 days in a Mohan Lal film ? An actor I admire ?? You must be joking !! No way, no fees, no nothing. Just tell me when I have to report and where. That is all.

The film will be in … hhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyeeeeeeeyoooooooooooo ..ANOTHER GOAL BY BRAZIL…..AND ANOTHER DISPLAY OF POETRY AND MAGIC… SIMPLY OUTSTANDING….!!!

Brazil 3, Chile 0 …

Ya so where was I … yes the language. The language will be Malayalam, but my character is North Indian so I shall be speaking in Hindi, with the odd sentence in Malayalam. Now that shall be tough, but effort shall be made, lets see what happens. Kerala as you all know is the most literate state in the country and this morning I read that it is the state with the highest GDP in the country. That is amazing !! Kerala – God’s own country.

Shanuk, spread across the carpet at our feet, responsible, firm and aware of any intrusion within this region. Perking up alert, every time there is a scream of joy at the scoring of a  goal, and then settling down to his snoring with a condescending expression.

The game still on … in its last throes ! Few minutes left. Chile still with endeavor and effort. But.. it does not look good for them. Loss here would mean back home for them. It is the knockout stage of the tournament.

And it is time for a knockout for me as well. Close to 2 AM now. Have to be up early for the flight.

Good night, god bless and love ..

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 28, 2010
Day 799

Prateeksha , Mumbai                         June  27/28 ,  2010                      Sun/Mon  1 : 42 AM

Back home ! Back in Mumbai ! Back to the monsoons and the wet roads, the humid air, plastic covers for protection, overcast skies and World Cup Football among hot cookies !!

Mumbai is Mumbai ! Good to be back.

Lounging around catching up on paper work, staff, leakages, plant and garden care … and one MAD Shanouk ! Ha ha ! He just could not contain his excitement. All 6′ over 100 kg of Piranha Dane  running crazily up and down the hall and staircase, without any motive at all. Just the shear joy of finding us all together after a long break, pushing his large slobbery snout right next to ours so we could appreciate and smell his freshly coiffure body, and the aroma of his new perfume that has been bought for him !! Then tired with his antics, snuggles up next to you on the couch and passes out, grunting and growling in is sleep.

It is Sunday as you know today and the time in the evening for the crowds. How they come to know I am back is a mystery to me. I have been away for many Sundays. Drive back from the office into Jalsa and get Abhishek and Aishwarya out too. Its a bit of a crush getting in to my own house – a saffron bearing, long haired ‘sadhu’, trumpet in hand heralding our arrival and getting thrown around by the mobbing crowds. Entertaining !! But once inside the gates are opened again and that little moment of audience connect.

So heartening to see the smile and cheer in the eyes and faces of the fans. They are our truest followers and friends. So sincere and devoted. Never have sufficient words to express to them the extreme joy and satisfaction in meeting them….

So visuals here of happenings of the evening a few hours ago at Jalsa -

And then it was back to the Tv and the WC 2010 in SAFrica !! Germany 4 England 1 ! Amazing game. Fast furious and great finesse. London and all of England must be a bit disappointed and forlorn. This is not the result they would have been hoping for. Germany are their most sincere rivals, in more ways than one ! But today, the Kaisers were a superior lot, disallowed goal and all ! And later Argentina spun their magic over Mexico with a 3-1 victory. It is getting very very hot down in South Africa despite the bitter cold.

Tomorrow morning is the ABCorp AGM – once in a year act of meeting up with all the share holders and giving them a profile and report of the Company activities for the year. And soon after that travel again to OOTY for the MohanLal film being made in Malayalam by Major Ravi on Kandahar – the place in Afghanistan where an Indian Airlines flight was hijacked to from India.

Will be visiting Ooty after ages. I think last shot, Dostana, Mard and Aakhri Raasta, Hum there. Wonder if it has become more crowded and if the forests and hills and lakes have been left in their pristine condition. Will find out and respond back when there. Though the reports of the advance parties are that I may have a problem with internet connections. Hope this is not true. It has become our lifeline has it not. No Internet – no Blog or tweet !

It is nearing 3 AM and I must retire. Sleep on the airplane was deprived so need to catch up now, else the share holders tomorrow morning shall be filing a complaint ! Ha !

Sleep well dearest ones from my extended family and may the best be with you always ..

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 28, 2010
Day 798

London , UK                      June  26,  2010                    Sat  4 :36 PM

There is a certain liberty and joy in watching ‘people’ on a sunny Saturday afternoon out on the streets with family and friends, laughing smiling and engaged. England does not get many opportunities such as this and it feels as though the entire city is out in the parks, the streets, the restaurants, happy and content with what life has to offer. Watching their spirits uplifts ours. There is a certain lightness in all we do. The step is energetic, the stride decided and strong and with purpose. There is a keen desire to puff up the chest with clean air, to exercise the lungs, to squint the eyes from the brightness of the sun or cover them with shades. Why is it that shades immediately transform you into a celebrity ? You begin to feel as though you are being followed by a whole army of the paparazzi. Important, stylish and worth a second look !

Today is the death anniversary of Mr Yash Johar, Producer and founder of Dharma productions, father of Karan Johar and one of the finest ‘gentlemen’ in the Film Industry. The first film that he produced under his banner, or the film that he launched his banner with was ‘Dostana’ with Zeenat Aman, Shatrughan Sinha and yours truly, directed by Raj Khosla. His next with me was ‘Agnipath’. A dear friend of the family and the most dependable human ever. No matter what the need he was always there, voluntarily without any obligation. Loved by all and respected for his fair conduct in an industry that often shied away from such attributes.

Yash Johar was just the ideal producer for an artist. His care and concern for them. His efficient and systematic management systems during and after their association with the film on the floors. His personalized attention that he gave to his entire unit, are now legendary. Many of the production systems he introduced in his unit were ahead of time, thoughtful and most professional. A soft spoken, gentle and concerned human, with the most subtle sense of humor, even in the most adverse circumstances.

We remember you fondly Yash ji and send our prayers to you through Hiroo and Karan. Our thoughts shall always be with you !!

Abhishek is back in Mumbai and on to his shooting schedules. I shall be joining him shortly and then be on with my own schedule with the great MohanLal from Kerala and Malayalam Cinema to do a small appearance in the film he makes with Major Ravi.

Life moves on .. tomorrow is another day ..

Another day of love and thanks to you that determinedly  remain connected – my FmXt !

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 26, 2010
Day 797 (i)

London , UK                    June 26, 2010                  Sat 4 : 35 PM


A corrigendum :

The article on Raavan that was presented by Anupam from Assam on the blog is written by -

Mr Shubhashish Charaborty

Thank you .. it was most eloquent

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 26, 2010
Day 797

London  ,  UK                             June  25,  2010                            Fri  11 : 56 PM

I have been inundated with responses from the FmXt and from other social sources on the absolutely mad piece of so called poetry that was put up last night. It was unintended, but words and thoughts simply flowed out in a stream of thought, and so there it is . It would not be proper to give explanation to the words or its ultimate effect – that would rob it of its originality. But, it is a trifle intriguing and I can understand the many that have expressed no knowledge, or ignorance towards it. Some day perhaps when the climate is more suitable and when there is desire to give an explanation to it, then shall I wish to put forth my process of thought when I wrote it. My gratitude till then for its acknowledgement !!

The event of the day – Brazil vs Portugal at the World Cup Soccer in South Africa, registered itself as a non event almost. There was more expected especially since both the teams have great value and followship. Brazil started off with great gusto and skill. The team moved in an orderly fashion, samba on the pitch, even though one could not hear the music because of the ‘VuVu’. But as someone suggested, confiscate the vuvuzela’s bring on the samba, and see what happens then !

I don’t think so. The VUVU has become a part of the `cup’. It would be an adverse decision, under many circumstances if they were to ban the instrument  - if it can be called that !!

Right now it has become the righteous tool for those that matter in the organization. A talent, a person who will feel intimidated and finally explode !! It is now developing political overtures, all in good humor of course. The range is pretty large and important – Bill Clinton to Madonna – or is it the other way round  ??

In all the noise and the drone of the ‘VuVu’ there is a factor that is being completely ignored. How have the games been going ? The fans the marketeers, publicity hounds and then some more, have been playing a continuous game on the side with all these lovelies of the written word tiking about. No matter what we  may have to say, the World Cup Soccer has been conducted with great generosity upon us. The spirit and the gaiety, the affection and the warmth extended to visitors from all over the world has been phenomenal. The South Africans have proved a very large point to the rest of the world and surprised all.

May this temperament grow and prosper. It is already being dubbed as the best World Cup ever. Our wishes and prayers for its complete success in the days to come …

Agastya is better in the mean while, and sends his gratitude to all those that show concern for him. Except, just this evening, someone stepped on his wound and it blew open again. But the tough lad took it well. Not a wince or tantrum. Went across to the doc and got it dressed. He is barely 8, but such a gentleman and such a ‘bhajj’ on computers and anything that spells ‘digital’, that you cannot merely ignore him. He tends to my Mac, my iPhone, my iPad and …

Never tires. What is this generation made of ..?? Their exposure to the latest gadgetry and their immediate understanding towards its operations, must be put in the right perspective. Stored, labelled and secured within closed walls and in open markets, this facility should be made available to all.

Perhaps some of the most glorious moments in life are the ones which concern children.

Long may they live and long their association with us …

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 25, 2010
Day 796

London  ,  UK                                  June  24  ,  2010                               Thu  11 : 45 PM

Another day another night, another feel for what is trite

‘Tis destined mind and bodied soul, we never look upon the whole

There is but hatred within and out, seamless, putrid without a doubt.

There are no reasons pure and fine, no limits barred or crossing line

Hung deep in hell to crucify, to dare to live or cause defy,

We are select the glorious few, we are to subject venom spew.

Glory to them who give us cause, relent, defy despite applause

They are but those that ponder well, or more appropriate pander swell,

In years gone by of reminisce, no one adheres to their finesse.

They are the champions of their art, they do not dither or random dart,

They live determined lives in self, measured in giant or little elf.

For them alas ! who judgement give, they are but one, no life to live.

Give me the reins to ride along, past gilded paths where I belong.

For me the glory, life and King, I am no butterfly on tethered wing

Much may they scribble on inked white page, posterity shall ignore with age

What then existence, what then remorse, you never could assess the force

The waves of time flood waters on, they are but shorn the space is worn.

Space dresses up in shades of air, the others never get a share.

It is around, about and here, they have it too but cannot bear.

Victorious in our own device, single and  fingered is suffice.

Exhaustive modes to push abuse, its brightening light on star struck moose.

It stands alone without a flinch, there is but nothing more to clinch.

Or so it seems until it moves, regal uncaring in its own shoes.

The vacant view the time gone by, they live in hope for another try.

It shall remain forever thus, we will ride on they wait the bus !


Never must any make any attempt to ascertain or to decipher this puzzle above. For this maze that has been drawn in near Cubic calculus, will always remain in mystery and intrigue. Much like that film on the mystic scriptures of ‘biblical’ proportions.

Do I scare you in my contemplation ? Fear not ! It is not what you may think it is. Yet, it could perhaps be very close to them that read with blinkered eyes.

In solace and in harmony – in peace and in silence ..

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 24, 2010
Day 795

London  , UK                         June  24 , 2010                     Thu  10:30 AM

Predictably, the written interview that I gave to Subhash K Jha the day before to before, found itself in a truncated version in the Bombay Times. I have always felt that if an interview is not printed in its entirety, especially those that have been written personally they lose the overall effect. Picking chapters or expressions from the middle or from what the editorial feels is right, is of course the papers prerogative, as it should be, but in my opinion the sense of completeness of thought gets a little diluted. So I present to you the interview as it was given -


*The reponse to Raavan in Mumbai  has been  remarkably rabid. What would  you  say  are the reasons for it?

ANS//
I am not qualified to respond to reasons for a response ! In a free society everyone has the right to comment and pass opinion. If there have been, according to you, ‘rabid’ remarks on ‘Raavan’, then that is what the people who make these observations have felt. We must respect the freedom given to an individual to do so.

*  Many within the  industry have  gone as far as  to label it Mani Ratnam’s worst film ever.Does that  kind of extreme response anger you?

ANS//
No it does not anger me that many in the Industry label Mani Ratnam’s film as his worst ever. On the contrary it actually justifies how much he is loved and admired. The liberty to get angry comes from those whom you love. Mani Ratnam is an exceptional talent, a director of immense credibility and worth. Even his so called ‘worst’ is a million times better than many so called ‘bests’. When one sets such high standards of credibility, you garner high expectation also. And when the audience feels that that standard has been even minutely compromised, it expresses disappointment. The anger is more a comment on their own disappointment, rather than one directed towards merit. People may not have patronised Guru Dutt’s ‘Kaagaz ke Phool’ or Raj Kapoor’s ‘Mera Naam Joker’, but they never stopped loving them, or else their very nexts ‘Chaudhavin ka Chand’ and ‘Bobby’, would not have seen such phenomenal successes. Aamir Khan and ShahRukh may have disappointed you in ‘Mela’ and ‘Paheli’, but that never stopped you from loving them to box office excellence in ‘3 iDiots’ and ‘Kabhi Alvida na Kehana’. No, it is not anger that is being expressed, it is indeed love !

  • You saw the  film a day before the rest of the world. What were  your responses? Did you anticipate  the adverse comments that emerged from Mumbai?


ANS//
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Yes I saw the film at the premier for the first time and I shared my thoughts on it with Mani after. I told him that it was marvellous how a thin story line had been given such a voluble presence. The film is an astonishing mix of mythology and politics put out in ethereal poetry. It is an intelligent film and possesses huge intellectual value, assets, that the ticket paying audience and the box office pundits are not necessarily impressed with. Hence the adverse reactions. Fair enough. But Mani Ratnam is the maker. It is his vision and thinking and artistic creativity. We must respect that. We may not like someone’s creativity, but we do not have the right to tell him not to create, as has been most harshly expressed by some.
I would want to put out here impressions of two individuals from my blog, who have reviewed the film, to exhibit the kind of intensity and vision they have. It is a stunning reminder of how discerning a viewer can be. Unfortunately they are long expansive pieces and shall take up far too much space, so I shall send them to you separately.
As for anticipating adverse comment from Mumbai is concerned, this is what I feel. When you are in the public arena, when you are in celebrity status, when you are deemed to be high profile, you will always be vulnerable to adverse comment and accusation. It comes with the territory. You are a member of the select few. You will be attacked and attacked mercilessly at times. You will also be the idol of several, loved and admired equally. You cannot have it good all the time. You must learn to live with it or stop being a member of the celebrity club. If there is a shortcoming in your work, your profile, your action, it is customary that your ostracization will take place. Take it on the chin and smile. If you are right, get up and prove it. If you are wrong, acknowledge and accept it.

  • Abhishek and Aishwarya’s performances too have come in for furious flak. Your comments on  their individual performances?


ANS//
In the performances and their evaluation there is diverse opinion. Some have hated it, some have applauded it. Two critics from two different prestigious print mediums have on the same day tabulated two exactly opposite reactions ! One says ‘Abhishek has hammed his way through the film’ and the other expresses that ‘this is Abhishek’s best performance to date’. One castigates Aishwarya’s ‘silent and stone presence’ in film, the other gushes at the most endearing quality of the film being her ‘stunning performance, never seen before’. Who do you believe ??
The critics opinion is a singular opinion. Their medium for its expression is in multiples – the medium apart from its reach, also bearing strength of influence. Critics review has the power of dictating opinion. Care then has to be taken on how the subject needs to be reviewed. You may hate a product, but I think you cannot, because of the power of the medium you represent, tell people not to buy it. That is unfair and not ethical. The burgeoning of several competitive and allied mediums within the last few years has somewhat diminished the exclusive majority enjoyed by the print media. People have greater choices now and are free to take which ever they prefer to.
But to get back to performances, it is important to understand that, Abhishek and Aishwarya will perform according to what the director demands. He is the master of the ship. It is only after he has approved and passed what he wants from them, will it be allowed to go out into the public. Abhishek’s and Aishwarya’s performance as you see it in the film, is what was demanded by Mani Ratnam. We may not, I say again, like it, but who are we to say it was wrong. Critics have an onerous and difficult task. They have to be producer, director, actor, screenplay writer, dialogue writer, musician, play back singer, stunt coordinator all in one, and some more – they need to have the ability to assimilate all of this in an opinion and put it down against time lines within 500-600 words. Its a tough ask. They would all of them have to be very comprehensively qualified  and educated to do this job. Commenting on their credibility would unnecessarily stir up sensationalized ‘breaking news’ bulletins for a hungry and starved idiot box ogre. So I shall refrain. But for me personally, I liked both their performances. They have both grown from when I last saw them in ‘Guru’ together. I also liked each member of the supportive cast ; they were all very good. Also remember each individual has his or her own personal standard of judging ability. They may not always be similar to general choice but, that needs to be respected also.
On an aside, if I may state, I have enjoyed and commented on a few performances of my colleagues in some of the films I have seen of late. Whenever something has impressed me I have never failed to acknowledge it.  For example -
** Saif, Akshay Khanna, Aamir and Farhan in ‘Dil Chahta Hai’ – sent them flowers and spoke to them too congratulating them.
** Irfan Khan in ‘Namesake’ – that telephone scene from Hospital to Tabu before he dies, brilliant, met him recently for the first time and told him so.
** Tabu also in ‘Namesake’ – the sequence when she comes to know her husband just passed away and she alone in home away from country moving from room to room helpless – incredible.
** Vidya in ‘Parineeta’, just could not take my eyes off her in the film, a Waheeda Rehman of KaagazKP, Pyaasa, Sahib Biwi.., vulnerable and so attractive with her throaty laugh ..
** ShahRukh in KANK and in MNIK – KANK the scene in hospital when he comes out of accident still groggy and MNIK the slightly squint and studied look throughout the film, brilliant. Told him.
** Kareena , not in any specific film, she is competent always, but in an advertisement, cannot remember the product, but it ends with her words “….on other things !”. The expression, priceless.
** Abhishek in portions of ‘Dostana’, ‘Sarkaar’ ‘Guru’ and ‘Paa’- Guru the last scene, and Paa in hospital, when he realises that Auro is his son, the close up, subtle staid and so effective.
** Shahid a few moments in ‘Kameenay’ astonishing close ups, silent. Met him on a flight from Goa and told him so.
** Prateek in ‘Jaane tu ya Jaane Na’, just the complete absence of the fact that a camera is recording his moment, the most difficult craft in cinema acting, from someone in his first outing, superb.
** Hrithik in ‘Jodha Akbar’ and the song Maula when he gets up and starts dancing with other sufi dancers, brilliant , a directorial moment for Ashutosh, felt like standing up in the theatre and clapping.
** Sharman Joshi in ‘3Idiots’ the scene when he goes for his interview with the board, and all his recent Mobile Adds., that he does, so spontaneous and such subtlety of expression, exemplary.
** Aishwarya in ‘Raavan’ the scene before climax in train with Dev her husband when he suspects her, the expressions spoke 10 pages of dialogue !
** Mani  - the brilliance in all his films, but one sequence in ‘Raavan’ when Beera starts to realize his attraction to Raagini – magic, magic, great cinema.

  • Do you  think the subversion  of the Ramayan specially towards   the end was justified ?


ANS//
Firstly we need to understand that the film is not Ramayan. It is Mani’s concept of a story with elements of the epic in his own interpretation of it. When I shall send you the two reviews I have promised, you will get a more adequate response. This is the director’s take on a story. We cannot comment whether it is justifiable or not. It is best left to his sensibilities as a creative artist. Comment yes, justify perhaps not.

  • I  remember  your  vocal and emphatic  support of Mani Ratnam’s Guru. Do you feel as strongly about  Ravan?


ANS//
Yes , but in different ways. ‘Guru’ was straight story telling and his brilliance in its presentation was very clear to observe. ‘Raavan’ is asking me to study and think and analyse and probe. Its taken a while to comprehend, so it is not immediate. It is driving me to intellectualize, something that most viewers are not prepared for when they go to see a film. Mani’s technique and approach may already be the subject of discussion and inspiration or imitation even as I write. But then that is a personal and individual view. It cannot be generalised.

*Apparently you’ve been reminding Mani Ratnam and  Abhishek that they’ve worked  thrice  together and that it’s about time you  got a chance  to  work with him. Is a film with Mani around the corner?

ANS//
I wish it was true, but there is no such offering. Could you put in a word for me ??

*  Does the savage  criticism  Abhishek’s solo films Delhi  6 and now Raavan strike you  as being perhaps a  little unjust to  him?

ANS//
No not at all. As I said people pay to go and see a film if they do not like something they have the liberty to criticize it. I cannot understand why you particularly mention ‘solo’. None of my successful films were solo. Deewar, Trishul, Muqaddar ka Sikandar, Sholay, etc.,. Abhishek too has had his share of solo successes and non successes. Some work some do not. Its film making. Happens the world over. One accepts the public verdict learns from it and tries again.

*His recent hit  was Paa, where you also starred. Any more projects featuring you and Abhishek?

ANS//
I hope there will be. There are a few talks in progress, when they are ready we can talk about it.

*You have again started signing  films after a  long gap. Please describe the projects you’ve taken on.

ANS//
Yes I had not signed a film for a while. There had been an accumulation of 5 films one after the other, due to the multiplex strike. All of them have released, barring one.
I have signed up with Raj Kumar Santoshi, and there are projects on the verge of finalization with Pritish Nandy Communication, Prakash Jha, Puri Jagannath, Abbas Mastaan and of course R Balki.

  • You  were in Paris  recently  for a recital  of your father’s poetry. How was that experience.


ANS//
Yes I was in Paris to do a recital at the prestigious Theatre des Champs-Elysee, of my Father’s poems. It was a first for me and a first for the Theatre too. Almost 70% French audience, subtitled facilities inside the theatre and a most remarkable evening for me. A venue that has played host to greats in philharmonic orchestra, world renowned ballet and opera to be hosting Hindi poetry recitation was unique. Some of my fans came in from New York and London, Germany and Spain to witness this occasion. I thought it was most endearing on their part. For me it was a privilege to be able to introduce my Father’s works to an foreign and alien audience. Just such a honour. My Father would never have dreamt that this would happen someday, but it did happen and it filled me with  a lot of pride.

  • In London  you  had dinner with Aamir Khan. Any projects together coming  up?


ANS//
Why would you assume that when two actors meet and have dinner together that they would be doing a project together !! Aamir was in the same Hotel as me, he called we met and went out for a meal. Just another social evening, nothing more. Though working with Aamir would be a joy, particularly if he were to direct the film.

*Lately  Mr Amar  Singh has had a  lot of  comments to make on your family. Your comments?

ANS//
Amar Singh ji is family and any matter on him becomes personal. I would not comment on matters personal.

*   I can’t help asking…you’re tweeting and blogging. Do these means   of communication make the  press redundant  for you?

ANS//
How could you possibly ask this question at the end of this most exhaustive response of mine to the press !! No the media will never be redundant. Yes I Blog and Tweet and Vog and soon shall also video blog, but the press shall always have its presence and importance. For me these  mediums are a wonderful opportunity to connect with my fans and well wishers independently and instantly. The internet is becoming a vast medium for the future. Most of the requests for interviews have also reduced because the media picks up all the daily news from our blogs and tweets. Look at the vast amount of information that these mediums provide on individuals you would perhaps have never had the opportunity to interact with. It should be allowed to grow and prosper, its use and misuse notwithstanding
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  • Tweeting…what have been  the  most  memorable experiences  in that sphere of activity?


AND//
To have had the great opportunity of a chat with Lata ji !!

Jun 24, 2010
Day 794

London  , UK                                   June 23, 2010                                  10 : 45 PM

England breathes easy again ! Won her soccer game 1-0 in the World Cup and now enters the last 16. There was an urgency about the game and Slovenia that put up a good fight went off disappointed. Many here in England had expressed displeasure at the manner in which their team was playing lackadaisical and without focus. This afternoon it all came together. Just about !!

Agastya has ripped his toe while playing ‘catch’ and has been stitched up with medical glue. Little fellow full of beans and excitement will have to cool off a bit. He is such an enthusiast.  In incidents such as this we  slow the game down .. standard procedure from others which have been earmarked. Pomp and pagentry no longer exist and so writing or commenting in for the tree plantation, makes for good reading.

An entire evening has been spent with Bachchan Bol regrouping for the sale, as all ideas coming to the front, have been given a presence. The more one talks of a probable expansion the more we realize that the proponents change drastically too. But of that later. For the moment we savor what has been offered, many other related ideas are brought up for nostalgia !! We work towards it.

I am very keen to put up on Twitter two of the reviews of Raavan, written by my dearest pin followers on my Blog. It is beyond perception that they have not been under any kind of influence, but have expressed great clarity and in depth intensity in putting these thoughts together. I have sought permission to do so from my followers on the Twitt, most want it, some do not. They feel that I am trying to insist on getting across the merits of the film despite its poor performance. This is not true at all. I would want as many to read how beautifully written these pieces are. They are a work of art to me. Yes they are pro the film, but that is not suggestive of anything.

So Satyam, Anupam, Phyliss, Qalander take a bow. I shall be putting across your thoughts by the morrow ! Exquisite as they are in its content I personally feel, they have the capacity to become great educators of cinema. Seldom do we, in todays rapid fire times get opportunity to sit and assess and document that which needs to carry documentation ; a kind of a librarian effect. But so be it ! These pieces shall see the light of day to prove we were dwarfed by their presence. Well done all !!

Business is such a tough call at any time of the day or year. And those in the world of creativity need to understand and perceive that. We must not allow ourselves to be brow beaten by uncalled for execution. Creativity or any form of it cannot be exploited for common gain. Creativity belongs to the creator, he or she must be valued for it. And paid !! Its right of possession must come from its desire to be with the person that created it.

For years now, the creator, the artist has been sidelined from actual profitability. Why ?? In what way has his contribution to be evaluated any less. There has been no effort to protect them, feed them, provide them with the basics of school or house. Let us at least be responsible in realizing ethics of copyright and property with content for those among them that wish to go further. We have for long now given in to the tradition of non conforming with the norm.

I am excited with the prospect of building these first off designs for the hoi-polloi, to be able to get some idea of their tastes, and more importantly, be able to give them the assurance, that covered by the term of the agreement -

The brain drags along, despite its weary journey … a journey, that I know shall be loved by all ..

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 23, 2010
Day 793

London  , UK                          June  22 , 2010                         Tue  11 : 45 PM

In the hustle and bustle of life, where was the time to sit perhaps and think, of what we did, said and believed, what was right and what wrong ! From the moment when I grew conscious of this world, I found myself standing in the middle of this Fair – each one here lost in their own loss, each one just waddling in their own give and take.

For a moment I stood their dazed and unsure ; where have I come, what must I do, which way must I go. When suddenly a push came from a direction and I too did start to flow in this muddle of life.

The extent to which the elements of the Fair were full of color and noise and celebration, humans were consumed with that equal amount of weakness. The more that you tried to accumulate and gather, you discovered that equally, how limited were the cupped areas of your hand. The more you desired to stay, the greater was the push from the crowds in the Fair. The give and take of life can take place with a cool mind and heart, but this was just an over action of rush and snatch and grab what you will.

They ask me now, what can I say – what I had thought to be of gold turned out to be the mud of the earth ; what I had thought to be a tear, came out the pearl !!

In the hustle and bustle of life, where was the time to sit perhaps and think …

This crowded life, this magical Fair, this ‘mela’ of life is an unending wheel of time. It shall consume all that we experience and think and believe, but shall not ever stop. A mountain today shall be a dusty path beneath our feet tomorrow. How then and why must we exclaim the beauty of the pinnacle peak, when all that shines in glory and magnitude will some day the earth become, to be trodden on and crunched under our feet.

In crushing though, must we assume that it be an act devoid of sensitivity. Were all that find our feet, be servile, crushed and shorn of all glory and presence. Do they not serve that provide for us to walk on them ! Do they not serve that form the base from which shall grow the peaks of glory and magnification. The element it is of our earth that bears the pain and exuberance of existence and birth, of death and end. Respect then to its cause is what makes us fair and just, tolerant and forbearing. Ugliness and all that subscribe to its tributaries may not always remain mirror like in pristine clearness at the peaks of snow clad mountains. At times they need to come down and mix with the earth and learn to live. This earth that sings and weeps with each turn of life’s overture, waits in desperate punctuality for that moment of awareness, when the two shall merge, for, then shall we be able to ascertain our peaks and our mud laden steps on earth …

Fear not the consequences of disparity and uneven compensations. We are none of us built as one. We are all different, even those that think that we are not. We are all indispensable and dispensable, together. Our tenures are demarcated, yet we shall meet and come across each other in capsuled time. Would we be then in consonance with our deeds our acts and our actions. Would we be then in strength to face and confront. Would we be then in justified glory of ourselves or would we be on our knees in pardon and in fault.

The perfect strife in our limited stay is the sum of our means – excitable, adventurous, but never free from error.

One day, a day in redemption or in praise, shall we all be judged, by our own self. It is that day when we shall ask of what we said, did and believed to be right or wrong.

In the rush of life that shall be our ultimate reckoning !

Amitabh Bachchan with the love from, and with the love to …

Jun 22, 2010
Day 792

London , UK                              June  21 , 2010                          Mon  11 : 20  PM

Children make such interesting subjects. Sit and spend some time with them and they shall surprise you with their knowledge, their opinion on matters of the mind and life, on technology and some very pertinent queries, which do not bring to us any comfort when responding to them. Or trying to respond to them.

My grandchildren now have attained the position of a superior. Their mobile usage sense, computer savvy sense, and any electronic instrument operation, is so rapid and effective, it amazes me how quick their minds must be working to attain any level of competence.

I think they are built differently, or build themselves differently. There is great clarity of thought in what they observe. Their speech is still at times American Tv influenced, but when required they are equally conversant in their local tongue. They are without any inhibitions, come openly to the point and within minutes, whether we complied with them or not. Most of the time we do not.

At the room in luncheon recess Agastya shall give you a lesson on the latest 4G phone and its various consequences. Most of which we had never heard of or did not have desire to. They have focus, are aware of marketing skills and know when to bring forth the company products in case of malfunctions. I am truly amazed at their acumen. I should really have shied away from it all and lived recluse like, in some wild and unknown location. But life does not let you go away so easily. It shall test and retest, until you are about to fall.

If you were to ask them a question or check a statement, they would look upon you with more than the reserve required from a teacher. They would then start up on how things function and run, making surprised comment on how come we did not know of this.

Their innocent banter is the greatest education one deserves. Mature and definite in approach and substantially confident of authority. This generation is indeed something else. Love them hate them, but never ignore them. For, those who can sincerely  gag himself on pitch or green patch, may be the cause of these reactions. So it would be wise to leave them where they are – energetic, full of new life and a rather tight slap on the stretched and extended posterior. Just a slap mind you, nothing to do with your new laws on caning.

Its the nonchalant manner in which they feel that the best is yet to come and are doing so merely to keep the body atoned and healthy for the next foray. This is worth all the administration skills that one can ever try to muster, to defeat them. But no sir if there is disagreement, you better be ready to justify your answers.

May this generation live long and in fruitful environs .. my prayers say so !!

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 21, 2010
Day 791

London  ,  UK                         June  20,  2010                     Sun  11 : 55 PM

The best planning is when you do not plan ! And then suddenly a plan erupts and takes shape. It is unwarranted, perhaps undesirable, and non committal yet it always turns out to be the best plan of the day. Ask me. I just fell a victim to it. And boy, was it enchanting !

We could be lounging around in our night gowns and pajamas, pfaffing and indulging in nothing at all and then suddenly someone throws an idea and everyone scampers away to get ready to execute it. Its the best act ever in unplanned planning. And today became special because of it.

Social networking is a contagious disease – once you start you never want it to end. We are so starved of wanting to communicate, that when it does happen we find ourselves in a situation that lingers on without stopping. You express something, push the button to post it and within seconds there is a response to it. Human nature demands then that you give an answer. The answer illicit’s a reaction and the wheel of networking starts to rotate in never ending fashion.

There are many still that look upon this with a certain amount of disdain. They consider it too childish and immature, a waste of time and energy and mostly, something that does not provide any value to your existence. They could all be right and they could all be wrong.

When I was considering the blog, I was most apprehensive about it. The tech involved in its operations were a little over bearing and alien. Most technologies are. But then as one got started and started to learn the operations and how they were to be put into practice, it all seemed easy and quite comfortable.

I thought I would never be able to do more than just switch a computer on. The thought of using it to store information, of sending out opinion and matter was beyond me. But I just felt that I would be isolated if I did not educate myself on this most useful object of every known persons desire. And also, there was a sense of pride in being able to be that exclusive member of the ‘computer club’.

I am still very distant and far from any excellence in the execution of this most complicated machinery, but hell, it has become an indispensable part of our lives almost. In the evening, in my room, in an area not greater than 15 square feet, 5 individuals seated barely a maximum of 5′ apart, were all occupied with their own respective laptops, iPads, BBerry’s and iPhones. And each happy with the belief that quality time was being spent. Yes there was quality time, but it was directed towards the quality of individual attention. I will deny the accusation that being in such close proximity, it was the modern generations indifference towards company that prevailed in the room. No. There was no indifference.

Despite the fact that we were all within such close quarters, we were communicating. Only difference was that the communication was taking place via the medium of the gadget. We were either passing emails to each other or trying to introduce the others to an interesting program on the net. Our speech was non existent, but not our browsers !!

Could this be the reason for the brevity in conversation among the new generation. There really is nothing to talk about ; its all available on the computer. Further investigation and debate needs to be conducted .

We go through perhaps one of the most important and exciting phases of our existence. An existence that  dwells in the cyber world with importance and impunity both.

Where this shall all lead us is not for us to debate or discuss, as did Barkha Dutt in ‘We the people’ on Tv. Let us enjoy its existence. Use it to our benefit and the benefit of humanity rather than be cynical and afraid of it. Let us not ask ourselves how long this will prevail or be alive. Maybe it serves its purpose in today’s time, not knowing where it shall be from tomorrow. Change is inevitable. This is not the end of the road. Every time we build a plane we feel we have built the ultimate machine. Until, a few years later, the new comes down and the old is forgotten and lost.

Who knows what benefits we reap from being in this state. But ‘being’ in it, is the important fact.

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 20, 2010
Day 790

London  ,  UK                             June  19,  2010                          Sat  11 : 55 PM

The joys of togetherness, simple yet effective, are the greatest cure for all ailments. Ailments of the heart, of profession, of life are all taken care of when we have the strength and presence of our loved ones with us. Just sitting around in their company, idling, making inane conversation, imitations and recollections of past events, is to me the greatest form of a holiday. Today was one such day ! Cherished and preserved for posterity !

Then … taking the ladies out shopping can be equally enjoyable ! Many of the male species would disagree. Their own mode of shopping is so different from the ladies that they have developed an aversion to this exercise. Men know what they want, know where it is to be got, go there and get it ! End of episode. Women .. well … are a little different too !!

Shopping for them is an adventure, a treasure hunt. Its an entire film  story that has a definite beginning a middle and an end. Most of the time ! The screenplay could dramatically change mid way. Cast and crew could be thrown completely out of gear and as a precaution should always be prepared for it. But seriously though, watching the ladies shop is an education. Nothing is instant and quick. These terms do not exist in the diary. They shall walk into a store with the impression to the shop keeper that it is likely that they shall buy up the entire store. This is most effectively conveyed through speech, attitude and gesture. Their actions subsequently seem to justify earnestly what they wish to convey – many different sections of the store are intensely rummaged, products opened or worn to their comfort and, I do not know if this is a bargaining technique, colors, sizes and designs that are not being displayed are deliberately asked for. There is disconcerted lamentation on they not being in the store, at times followed by a gentle admonition as to why it is important to have such product with them and that they should provide for it on their next visit. This generally comes at the end of the rummaging, when the entire store has adorned a look as though it had just been hit by a tsunami. Trials follow, if it is a garments store ; each wear being put on, admired and posed for quite unconsciously in front of large mirrors within the store. With each seductive turn of the body to admire the product now upon them, there is opinion sought  from those that accompany on what they think of selected item. When accompaniment agrees to its fit and elegance and beauty, they shall be subjected to a well meaning query as to why accompaniment thinks so. If not, an argument on the merits and demerits of its presence on body shall be animatedly pursued. The joining in of the store sales team on this panel discussion is a welcome addition, the timings for which could well take you beyond the closing hours of the department store !

There is however a noticeable feature in all this exercise. Animated as they are in discussions on the feasibility of possible purchase, there is sly look around too at other females in the store and what they are purchasing. Duplication is a sacrilege and a keen eye also observes what the others are about to or negotiating to buy. The moment another client shows interest in their choice, a quick selection occurs and the product is asked to be kept aside and reserved for them, just so that the other does not get it !! Whether it will be purchased or not has still to be decided. For the moment though, because of its interest being created from other quarters, it has been reserved or booked in order to prevent it from going the other side.

Having secured the sale of desired article, or its prevention to sale, a devastating move now takes place. The female imperially announces that she will be back in just a moment, and walks out ! Walks out to the next store ! Next store, to check if they are carrying something similar or better or cheaper or more expensive.. whatever ! This could be a move to indicate to previous seller that they are not indispensable, which always helps in price negotiations, or, and this is merely a personal observation, it could be to check where ‘competition’ was heading !!

Similar procedures shall be followed at many other stores, for that one piece of garment that needs to be acquired. Promises will be made, selections reserved, competition negated at all facilities and then shall come the master stroke ! They shall return to first window and negotiate. For, now they have information from several other stores and have the benefit of threat to go their, if window 1 were to disagree !!

The male that has been dutifully and in many ways, judiciously, agreeing to whatever the female has been approving, has seated himself somewhat uncomfortably, mid way between all the visited stores, by the pavement on a bench. In many respects this is the ‘credit card bench’. There are several other ‘members’ belonging to this fraternity who now quietly join you waiting for their turn to come and to be asked to ‘perform’.

Male shall upon being ‘summoned’ observe due diligence on the numbers being crunched at far end of the store. Receipts signed, produce adequately packed in fancy large containers bearing branded names of the ladies department store, is now handed over across the counter to the male, who, lighter in the pocket, awkwardly holding ladies branded bag, turns around to discover that the lady has left the store to another across the road !!

What do you think .. or what would you recommend ..

Better to be watching Cameroon making desperate attempts at equalizing against Denmark in the 2010 World Cup Soccer, being played at vuvuzela’d Stadiums in South Africa !!

Love,

Amitabh Bachchan

ps : for those ignorant to WC Soccer 2010 jargon, ‘vuvuzela’ is a horn instrument being made available at all stadiums for the fans to buy and blow, to cheer their teams with. The constant drone of hundreds of vuvuzela’s at the games is like a very large contingent of bees surrounding the stadium crucible and drowning all other sounds with their constant drone. Many of the surprising and unusual results at the games are being attributed to the distraction of the vuvuzela sound !!! vuvuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!

Jun 19, 2010
Day 789

London , UK                                  June 18, 2010                              Fri  11 : 30 PM

I marvel at modern methods of communication and am enamored by the fact of how they all bring humans together. Of how convenient it makes our lives in sharing every little detail and moment in our respective existence. Yet despite the fact that we are seemingly closer to each other, the world and all that happens within it, strives so hard to keep us apart. The differences and disagreements, the hostilities and animosity that they bring along and the intolerance towards each other in every conceivable manner, just goes so against all that communication wants to bring together.

We are today a race that is more connected with each other in this era, than ever before. Yet our issues and problems are so far removed from each other. The divide widens, separations occur with greater rapidity, regions become independent of the whole mass, language beliefs and culture exercise their independence and get it, further weakening the strata of our firmament built with love and understanding.

It is painful to see that. Painful to see how trivial issues become larger than life problems, not easily solvable. Or is there something else that we are unable to see behind all this. Is this a test for us all that needs to be undertaken, until we have repaired ourselves. Have we been brought here to clean up our acts, to pursue a line which after the course is over shall redeem us ? It is so difficult to say. It would have been easier had we the answers to all that we ask and want to know. But we do not. And because we do not, we are unable to answer, and being unable to answer pushes us deeper into the realm of belief in some unknown power. A power that in its final analysis, takes a shape. A shape that we all begin to worship. A shape that we have acknowledged as a super natural being ; that of God !

And somewhere in this very complicated life, this image that we have derived, becomes the idol of our worship. It acquires divinity. And the divine is never questioned.

This is an interesting situation. When we do not have the answers to all the questions that life raises, we conveniently pass them on to Divinity. Divinity in all its silence and unknown quality projects that sufficiently without knowledge also. We do not have all the answers, and when we do not we believe that HE/SHE has them. Our reverence builds, converts itself into faith, then religion and all the divisions take seed. Our life has begun to be complicated.

Maybe it has been ordained in this manner. Maybe we are being led astray. Who knows ?

Their have been some interesting debates on the Tv – in particular on the Bhopal Gas Tragedy and on corporal punishment in Schools. The Bhopal matter seeks justice and adequate compensation to the victims. Unfortunately though, all that it achieves is slang matches between politicians supporting their respective parties and involving themselves in vociferous blame games ! How does the victim benefit from this is never under consideration. Which party was in power or what action was needed to be taken by whom is not going to get those that lost their lives back. We need to see those that suffered adequately compensated and looked after. We do not need to see whether the Manager and Head of Union Carbide in India, Mr Anderson, was allowed to escape to his country, after the tragedy, conspiratorially or not. Yes he must be made answerable and if found guilty the law must be made operative. But let us not waste debating time on this and forget those that suffered and are still suffering.

I read Rajdeep Sardesai’s, head of IBN 7/CNN-IBN, Tweet on this. He propagated that let all of us that feel so deeply on the issue contribute individually merely Rs 10/- each to be put into a common fund to alleviate the suffering of the victims. I am certain that the amount collected thus would far exceed the compensation consideration, now under debate and controversy. If Rajdeep were to set this up I would be not just the first to contribute, but to further the cause in whatever capacity I may be asked to.

And now to corporal punishment in Schools. The caning and the physical acts of discipline extended by teachers against the pupils. The issue has come up because a most prestigious institute in Kolkata, the La Matinere has had an unfortunate incident. A young student was caned by the Principal on disciplinary action and the incident was so traumatic for him that the student committed suicide. Now, all schools have been banned from caning or any kind of ‘corporal punishment’ to be exercised in Schools.

I studied in Sherwood in the hills of Nainital as a boarder, and I must admit that caning was a regular feature in our stay in the School – there was not a single year when our Principal, the Rev RC Llewelyn, may God bless his soul, did not practice his Cambridge Blue tennis forehand on our bent over posteriors ! Our ‘crimes’ varied. Surreptitiously sneaking out in the lunch break to Dorothy Seat, an idyllic picnic spot situated on the hill above our College, to see the girls from our sister school All Saints, being the most grim. The others being lesser in intensity. Breaking ‘bounds’ to cross over our valley into the Government House to swim in their pool, chewing gum in the Chapel, and playing billiards well after ‘lights out’ !! Innocent fun school antics, which children of the age indulged in, and got punished for.

As students we did not resist or fight against it. It was part of our curriculum in a sense and I think we were better off with it than without. Indeed there were occasions when we opted for it as against, when given the choice of an alternative. Four cuts to missing the Saturday movie and we would go for the ‘tennis swing’. In fact the act was taken as a subject of great hilarity, when your section went in for their common morning baths the next day – the dark stripes on your naked posterior, left overs of the caning trauma, being a signal for the others to take a jibe at you !! It was all good school boarding house fun !

The whole procedure was to me and I would like to believe for others to, a very fair and formal affair, this business of caning. We knew what the punishment would be if there was infringement, so it wasn’t as though you were suddenly caught forcibly and beaten black and blue in front of the entire school. Upon being caught or reported against, we were asked in the most polite manner to present ourselves in the Principal’s Office. Once there, the Principal would check with us the credentials of our ‘crime’ and after he was convinced that we had indeed exceeded the ‘law’, he would announce to us our punishment -

“I’m going to give you 4 cuts Bachchan “, Llewelyn would announce in his cultured Welsh accent. “Would you please step into the adjoining room !”

The adjoining room was the ‘gas chamber’, the ‘electric chair room’ the ‘hang- mans rope’ room. Not literally of course – just kidding with these horrific names !! At one end was a wheel barrow. And I have yet to discover or understand why a wheel barrow. The ‘victim’ was asked to bend down and hold the 2 handles of the wheel barrow. This elementary act tightened the trousers over your now protruding posterior, gave the ‘executioner’ a clear and clean view of the object to be subjected to the ensuing contact of cane against skin, and kept your eyes away from the actual ‘tennis stroke’ in operation.

A drawer in the room housed some of the most well oiled canes I had ever seen, the sound of it opening and a shuffle of sticks as appropriate ‘tool of punishment’ was chosen, indicated to you that the ‘end’ was near.

You were then spoken to again -

“Are you ready Bachchan ?”

A soft and almost inaudible “yes sir” was followed by an audible swish and whack of the first of the 4. Thats it. After the first one, you never heard or felt the remaining 3. The first had numbed the bum !!

Operation over, you stood up from bent position, turned around, trying desperately to catch your breath and restricting desperately from taking your hands on your behind for a good butt rub from the sting, to say -

“Thank you Sir !”

If you did not acknowledge, you were gently reminded to say so and then given leave to leave the Princi’s office. You walked out as calmly as you had gone in, shut the door behind you and THEN … jumped and rubbed your bottom  to ease the pain for several minutes, whilst your classmates laughed and giggled at your expense !!!

So there you see. All conducted in a most civil and disciplined manner. Part of school life. Taught us lessons. Gave us discipline and the respect for obedience to rules and regulation.

But ..

That was 1956 ! It is 2010 now. If now, Abhishek or Shweta or Agastya and Navya-Naveli were to be even spoken loudly against, it would incense me. Times have changed and so have circumstances. I would strongly oppose corporal punishment in schools now.

Just as much as I would oppose the FmXt to being subjected to this rather long and weary post going beyond 1500 words !!

Good night dear ones .. it is late even by my standards !!

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 18, 2010
Day 788

London , UK                           June  17,  2010                          Thu  9 : 40 AM

I chose not to indulge in writing much last night because the fatigue of the entire day had caught up with me and I was not making any sense with my thoughts. A tired body always does that. So .. up first thing in the morning and back to the extended family rested and collected.

The Premiere was an experience last night. Big Pictures and Reliance had done a tremendous job. Great choice of venue, the British Film Institute, South Bank and great organization in the set up around it. Magnificent red carpet, barricades for the fans, special enclosures for the media and interviews, large LED screen at a vantage point so all that was taking place on the extended reception area was visible to the vast expanse of humanity that had come to cheer the artists. And a special thank you to Shah Rukh and family for taking time out to attend the show.

It does become difficult to attend personally to all the fans, but an effort was made to reach out to them, sign a few autographs and shake a few hands and take some pictures. I have to say though that the fans were enthusiastic, had tremendous lung power, gorgeous smiles, but most disciplined. Its a quality I have always admired in fans and London lived up to it. Thank you all the fans that took time out to attend the show. I know some were unable to get personal attention, especially some that had so kindly brought along photographs to be signed, but in that restricted area there is only so much one can do. Apologies then to those that felt disappointed and if there is a way how one can make up for it, here is a platform where you could express it and I shall see what best we can do.

It is a tough task to review your own work and when you have your own involved in it, it does become personal. So I shall leave that to the discerning audience to judge and analyse what they thought of the film, but this I can say, that Mani Ratnam is one of the greatest assets of cinema that India has. His approach, his mind, his sense of the visual and his brilliance in presenting complex subjects is unique. May he continue to contribute his great talent to our fraternity and may we ever be enlightened by his produce.

It has been a rewarding few days away from home. We have all had an opportunity to be together, to be a part of each others events – the recital in Paris, the film of Abhishek and Aishwarya in London and now we head home to get down to our respective routines.

Abhishek and Aishwarya have been working round the clock and in different parts of the world. My travels too have been extensive and wide and now one wishes we could all be together maybe for a holiday where we do not have to worry about our schedules, but just to enjoy the company of each other and the beauty of a region we may not have seen before.

It is strange that even though it is a recommended and at times necessary diversion, taking a holiday at times, makes me feel guilty in a way. I just feel that not working for a single day takes something away from me – an endeavor to justify our existence. Many in the family and those that care often suggest ‘ you have worked enough, sit back, relax, rest ‘. But I feel that it would be a terrible day when I would have to stop work of my own accord, to feel that I have done enough, to limit myself. There is so much to be done yet and so little time, now even more so as I approach my 70′s. Not the nineteen seventies, but the 70′s of my age !

I know that this lay over of a few days has done wonders for my constitution – extended waist line and sluggish body movements !! Ha ha ! So I need to get back in shape, get to the gym, control the intake and involve the mind in acts which scratch creativity and not ‘ what are we having for lunch today ?’, queries.

Agastya has just barged into the room full of World Cup fever and enthusiasm and I must pay attention to him, or else …

Be with you soon .. love and more …

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 17, 2010
Day 787

London  ,  UK                                June  16/17,  2010                             Wed /Thu  1 : 15 AM

Just back from an overwhelming cinema experience called ‘RAAVAN’ and have been stunned at the manner in which any one could think of such visuals, to have kept them in ones mind for so long and then finally to have spoken up in the shape of film is quite amazing !

A massive turn out of fans and screaming public at the desired level – the red carpet, warmed us all up to the experience that was to follow. Earlier this morning, thanks to FmXt Satyam gave in a description of how one could be connected … with events of such dynasty.

The cast and crew and the near and dear ones, trundle along to their haunt at the Hotel, one or two venture even further. What we trembled through before turning in, is the thought of the burden of release out from our systems. The product is gone out, in the market , in the minds and hearts of the the viewer. No amount of effort to distort that image is rightly going to change and it never will.

My body has reached a stage of repulsion. I must allow this to relish the state its in within me.

It is short for now, but shall certainly make up sooner than later ..

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 16, 2010
Day 786

London , UK                            June  15,  2010                     Tue  11 : 25 PM


It is DAY 786 ! 786 being the most sacred number in Islam and among Muslims. Bahut hi paak mana jata hai ! Before beginning anything new, 786 has always been imprinted on the top. And of course closer home, I can never forget the 786 badge of ‘Deewar’ and the Coolie Number in ‘Coolie’.

I have never been able to discover how this came about or what its significance developed in the world of Muslims, but if there are a few friends reading in, I would be most obliged if I could be educated on this.

So ’786′ in all its purity and sacred presence in our bloglife, and the hope and prayer that it would bring to us all the blessings of its value to mankind. May we live together and exist in harmony and peace and with respectful dignity. This is our prayer and our strong wish. Inshallah !!

Leaving Paris in the morning was harsh. Leaving any place always is. We build our little nests wherever we go, decorate it, get acclimatized to it and then one fine day all has to be put away and we shift and leave.

I have found this phenomena most disturbing for women. The woman has always been the nomad. She is born in her parents home, and lives and believes that this is her place in permanence. Then one day she decides to get married and leaves this home to occupy another, which now becomes her permanent abode. It is to me the most heart wrenching moment in the life of a girl when she has to abandon her Father’s place to accept and believe that where she had been for all these years had indeed been a temporary reside. Her new home, the home she moves in with her husband, the one where she brings her children to, is now her real home. And how quickly and sincerely she will go about in accepting this fact. This place she builds with the most care and love and remains with it till her dieing days. This now is her family, her nest. This she gives her all to. She protects it like the lioness in a pride of lions, builds its walls and rooms with the utmost care for harmony and peace and fulfillment. Brings up her ‘cubs’ in that environment that she has built, nurtures her dreams for the young ones and the one she has accepted as her man and lives for the rest of her life thus – bonded, devoted and linked for life.

That is some dedication.

I watch Jaya at times when she checks in to a Hotel away from home. She will convert that little space that is her room albeit for a few days, into her little home. It does not remain another rented facility for her, it becomes her home for those few days. It is the instinct of the woman that coerces them to behave in such manner. It is the one quality that differentiates them from the men.

With so much time and energy devoted to the place, is it any wonder then that moving away from it is like separating a portion of your body along with it ? I do not question the wife when there are decorative and design decisions to be taken with respect to the home. I leave it to her. This is her territory, her domain, her all. She must be the builder then and we the supporters. Men may think on this with a sense of practicality, woman will think on this from an emotion. At times it all seems impractical and not in keeping with what we want it to be, but when you look at it from their point of view, it all falls into place.

Home is where the heart is. The woman constructs that heart and never will allow it to be disturbed or to be subjected to pain. Give in then to this great quality of theirs. For, you are not in fact giving in. You are giving in to her heart, to her home, which to her is everything. Men have  their jobs, their profession, their golf, their football games. But at the end of the day they come back to their home. It is a place that they would never substitute.

Abhishek and Aishwarya have flown in just this evening after hectic and tiring procedures being conducted for the promotions on ‘Raavan’, and it was such a delight to be all together again. Took them out to dinner, caught up on events and times, laughed, went back on time when Abhishek and Shweta were little kids. Narrated to the ‘bahu’ the brattish antics of her husband when he was small, when in walked Rishi and Neetu Kapoor for dinner at the same restaurant. Rishi is shooting for a film here and we talk of old times, of the numerous fun times had on the sets of the films we did together, both with Rishi and Neetu. They are now my relatives as you all know – Rishi’s sister’s son is married to my daughter Shweta. We compliment them on Ranbir and his latest release ‘Raajniti’, they compliment us on Abhishek and ‘Raavan’. We all live in a compact world. Goodness ! The number of films done together – AmarAkbarAnthony, Naseeb, Coolie, Kabhi Kabhi. And with Neetu – Great Gambler, Adaalat, Kabhi Kabhi, Yarana … memories of some great movies and their makers ..

And then on to tomorrow, to ‘Raavan’ to the premier at British Film Institute, South Bank and then back to Mumbai and ‘home’…

The heart calleth .. and home it shall be soon !!

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 15, 2010
Day 785 (i)

Paris  , France                           June 14/15,  2010                    Mon/Tue  1 :  22 AM

The venue Theatre des Champs-Elysee in Paris of the recitation on the June of 13th, 2010, of my Father and some of the news that made the news..

And then a Father’s son does his bit in a Mall in Gurgaon, Delhi near by for the promotion of Raavan ..

With love and expectation ..

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 15, 2010
Day 785

Paris ,  France                      June  14,  2010                      Mon 8 : 14 AM

Paris      France         June 14,  2010                Mon 11 : 47 PM

I barely slept last night .. this morning … I wouldn’t know when it was, but I know that I did not sleep. Sometimes sleep evades you if you are apprehensive, at other times it evades you when apprehension gives way to catharsis – an emptiness, a void when the deed is done. That void kept me awake – wondering what the night at the theatre had been !

So I awoke and seated me down in front of my latest obsession and started to compose what I felt should have been composed. But I failed. Failed in expressing in legible words what I had meant to put down. And now, I sit me self down again in front of my obsession and the words still do not come. And I wonder why this happens.

Words are not going to be sufficient to describe what a son may feel at the end of an evening, where he has lived and breathed and existed in the shadow of his exalted Father. A Father in who’s reflected glory a son was able to live, survive and perform.

I am Amitabh Bachchan and I am my Father Dr Harivansh Rai Bachchan’s son and I have last night, lived within the soul given to me by my Father. I did not miss him, but I must be honest. When I gave the final curtain call, it did not become easy for me to control my emotions. As I closed my eyes and bowed my head in reverence to the exemplary audience, something broke my resistance and I felt vulnerable and weak. There was a sudden surge that ran through my body and crept up rather rapidly through my face and into my eyes. It was that moment at times when you do not want to stop. Stop the emotion, stop that feel, that rush of blood in all the wrong places, because you do not want to be overcome by any other force. With the force of my Father within me, what was this that was overtaking me ? I did not want any other rush within to replace what I had with courage and strength built up for the evening. And so ..

I did the next best thing. I turned and left the stage straight into my dressing room, with the shouts and screams from the enthusiastic audience urging me to come back. I did not. I could have not and I am happy about it. I desired to live with that moment. It would have taken me away from it had I returned.

Many came in to the room later – friends, organizers, producers, theatre managers, dignitaries, government representatives, EF … but I know that I was not honest with them. My acknowledgements were there for all to see, but I know that they lacked genuine feel. That feel had been usurped by the feel of my Father. And I do know that I need not explain this to anyone. But explain I must. When you are privy to the hope and expectations of those that have relentlessly only shown love and affection, then there are certain mandatory moral and ethical codes that need to be followed. And I think I followed them physically, but mentally remained immersed with those of my Father’s.

I lament the fact that those that were in my proximity soon after the concert, did not get the kind of affection and care that I would have wanted to give, but I do not regret it, for, I know that those that care for me, care for my emotions too. And last night you realized that and let me be.

For this and just for this, I do not have any qualms when I confess that I was not honest with you.

You are and will be extremely close to me. But when you are close to me, you are also close to several other ‘me’s’. Last night that other ‘me’ took precedence and I know that you will never question or argue on its genuine ness and reserve. Which is why you shall all remain forever mine and within me.

As I walked through the portals of the dressing room corridors on my way to await my call on stage, I could not but imagine a sense of being dwarfed by the thought of the several greats that had either been in the same environ as me, or had with their prolific talents privileged the very space where I was striding.

And as I sat by the wings as the last entry bells went off, every other thought just went out of the window, leaving me clean and clear to present myself in front of the audience and begin my chores.

The gentle murmur of a packed audience suddenly went silent. The lights dimmed, a few whispered instructions were crackled into the walkies, the music orchestra walked on to stage led by the able Viju Shah, son of the great Kalyan ji bhai and the audience applauded their presence. The entry notes of Madhushala strung up and after what seemed like an eternity I walked out to the front of the stage with folded hands – Namaskar, Bonsoir, good evening …

In the midst of the whistles and screams and the notes from the orchestra a sudden transformation took place and all that I had lived and expressed with my Father transferred itself into that one voice, that one ‘sur’ that belonged for 75 years to the epic ‘Madhushala’. I was on, or was I really ? I recollect not. Poems, songs, folk songs, interpretations, reactions all followed in one unstoppable stream of events.

I was my Father, Dr Harivansh Rai Bachchan ..

I am Amitabh Bachchan, and I am my Father’s son ..

Jun 14, 2010
Day 784

Paris , France                               June  13,  2010                             Sun  11 : 15 AM

Wobbly legs, thumping heart beats, restless demeanor ! The day is upon me now. June 13th 2010, Theatre des Champs Elysees, Paris, a most prestigious venue, home for all the greats of ballet, philharmonic and opera ; location this evening for my recital at 8 pm of my Father’s poetry, sub titled in French on a digital screen running above the stage, in this voluminous facility. Never had my Father ever imagined that his works would one day be presented in such manner. I am blessed Babuji, to be your son and hope that tonight you will be watching over me as I introduce you and your prodigious work to the French.

Yesterday in the afternoon on setting up a rehearsal at the venue, I came to stand up on this sacred platform and realised what an awesome visual unfolded in front of me. Semi circular three tiered seating, boxes for the important visitors, velvet and art deco, Lalique and gold inscriptions, acoustics beyond measure and beyond microphones, and just an air of immense sophistication – an honor that the facility gives to those that perfect themselves in the field of the performing arts.

And me ! Small, pigmied, in the presence of all this greatness, alone on this stage reciting Hindi poetry to an audience that shall not understand a spoken word of it, nor that of English – what am I doing here ?

Apprehensions galore. Uncertainty and fear written large over my face. But my strength – the presence of my Father’s words and writings in my hand close to me. All those years of spending endless hours in his company, when he graced poetic symposiums, sittings and informal meetings on his poetry at home and in the homes of others, all coming to the fore now and the inspiration of that presence to be today, poured out. And the challenge really, whether I will be able to do, even the smallest and minuscule justice to his renditions and to his genius !!

I must not dwell on this any more. Its overpowering talk and thought, shall only help in bringing down the spirits I shall need, to overcome my task tonight.

After the rehearsal we spent a delightful evening with some friends who had among them great academic talent from the country of my present stay, and much was discussed on matters of mutual interest. The young man had spent three fruitful years in India and most of it Mumbai, working in one the most prestigious newspapers of the country. The conversation quite obviously, harbored along media and its various manifestations. Some delightful insights were brought forward by my guest and some counters from me were equally appreciated. In all a wonderful exchange of ideas and thoughts that left the both of us hopefully wiser and with greater wisdom.

Abhishek has his own heart pumping racing along with that of Aishwarya for their upcoming release ‘Raavan’. In Delhi now for its promotions then tomorrow morning in Hyderabad for it, ending up in Mumbai by the evening to join a TV show promoting it and finally catching a flight at night to be in London on the 15th for the Premier of ‘Raavan’ on the 16th of June at 6 PM red carpet and 7 PM show at the British Film Institute, South Bank, London.

And yes, after my own recital finishes here in Paris tonight, Jaya and I shall be going back to London to join Abhishek and Aishwarya for the premier too. A family reunion after many days and looking forward to it.

Time, distance, events all combining together in one great big extensive flow – the vagaries of our lives in this century ! The mind, the body and the very system having to cope with it. Many among you ask how one does all this, or how does the energy develop to cope with it. I have no answer for it except, when the need arises, the body rises.

This body, this amazing piece of natures machinery, has from time immemorial been tested and tried through the most strenuous and extenuating circumstances, and has always come out with surprises. I wish and pray that in the coming hours and days, it lives up to the reputation that we have all come to believe and respect !

Au revoir !! Love and happiness as always -

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 13, 2010
Day 783

Paris ,  France                           June  12,  2010                           Sat  8 : 35 AM


The wondrous beauty of sleep is natures greatest gift to mankind. The moment of repair and recuperation during its process, is the remarkable manifestation of the Creator. We may administer to ourselves externally, we may be washed with decent and good cure, we may be indoctrinated with wisdom, rationale and sense, but to assimilate this in all its entirety you need the acceptance of it all from your system.

Quiet contemplation and refined thinking has often driven many a soul to that enviable ‘doorway’ that has promised the ultimate ‘nirvana’. Magically when left to its own, the body has given the best results and the best solutions. Sleep then in its customary ‘avataar’ as the one that is beholden to better the being, is the most recommended curriculum.

‘Lets sleep over it’, has been at times the most desired and recommended expression. But it has not just remained a desired act, it has proved relentlessly, that it has value.

I value my sleep, small and limited though it may be. I value its quality of repair and recompense. It has remained that one single important element in the sobering down of its induced hangover. Medically, despite the medicinal inputs and invasive procedures, it is eventually the rest and internal working that has resulted in the final coming out from the anesthetic condition.

Respect then must become primary in our assessment or in our considerations towards this god given compulsion, sleep.

Today as I awake I know that my sleep even though conditioned because of time zonal changes, has been sufficient for the moment. When it comes again, I shall not prevent it. Nature will draw me into it. Indulge me into lethargy. Coerce me to get horizontal. If fortunate, pull me away into the softness of a pillow and bed. Curl me up fetus like, even at age 68, replicating the months spent in my Mother’s womb. Cover me up in sheet, blanket or some covering, to build the comfort of protection – a feeling of safety in the insecure environment of the world we exist in or in the one that we are undertaking to go under – our dreams. The expression on the facial muscles shall always be one of complete submission – carefree, without care, free and relaxed. Watch from close quarters those that are in deep slumber. They are the ultimate impressions of vulnerability, open to any form of inducement, open and pure, soft and gentle, sublime.

Living beings look the best when they rest. When they awake, they encounter, analyze, regret, object, opinion-ate, show anger, express, comment ….

Life’s most used comment is ‘wake up kid !’. Wake up to what ? All this ! Were we not better off when in rest ?!!

In contemplation and thought -

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 12, 2010
Day 782

Paris, France                        June 11, 2010                        Fri  7 : 12 PM

The Honorable Court has dismissed a petition of fraud against me in the Barabanki land matter today. The case has been won and one breathes freely again. Breathes freely again because of the reassurance the legal system gives to individuals who are wrongly and unjustly implicated. Breathes freely again because those that indulge in frivolous complaints and cause considerable anguish to the victimized have been given a lesson by the justice system.

An earlier land matter of mine within the same region of Barabanki a couple of years ago, was finally settled in my favor by the honorable Supreme Court of India. The issue is not that legal recourse had to be undertaken to get justice, the issue is that till justice prevailed the media had already crucified and hung me. The language used, the headlines declared and the dramatics performed by the anchors of the electronic, made such a conclusive and damning impression, that whether clearance finally comes through to me or not, all that remains in the eyes and minds of the reader, viewer, public is the negative and humiliatingly damaging impression created against the victim.

It had happened again in the Bofors matter. For 5-6 years there was nothing but hatred and malice laden accusations of every hue and color. We fought these false and unsubstantiated allegations single handedly in almost four different countries, in an equal number of courts, resulting in finally being exonerated by the Royal London Courts of Law. We had challenged all those that were making accusations. We invited them to come to court, to prove to justice and law their claims. No one came. Dagens Nyheter, the Swedish paper, that had made the first allegations came, but did not enter the court and asked to settle outside and apologized. VP Singh, may God rest his soul, had shouted from roof tops before and after he became the Prime Minister that he would send me to jail for life. I drew an open letter to him when he became PM – prove me guilty or resign. Not a word came out from him, and neither did he resign.

Today the Bofors matter has finally been resolved and the whole world knows who the real culprit is and even he has not been brought to book. So what does one say of these 5 years of wrongful harassment and the irreparable damage that it caused. I was made a traitor of the country. People abused me on the streets. Film makers shied away and threw me out of ‘work under progress’ films, asking for their money back and getting it. Certain sections of the Industry desperately tried to stop me from attending my shootings, to label me a pariah. For what reason ? On an allegation that was not true and false.

Who will bear the loss of face and character that I was subjected to. Who will bear the consequences of my damaged reputation. Today those very souls that abused and rejected me wish that I work for them. They send proposals and wish for bygones to be bygones. Ha ! Its bygones for you Mr, its a lifetime for me. A lifetime of bearing illegal, illegitimate and completely false tirades against me.

I will be civil with all. I will not hold it up against anyone. I will not destroy my insides to retaliate. But I shall not forget. And I shall not wish for any member of my family to ever forget.

Year upon year month after month, some accusation or the other is directed towards me or my family. Ridicule and callous statements follow and what remains in the minds of the people is these negative untruthful impressions. Every now and then unmoderated abuse shall be flung across to me via social networks. Have they any idea of the facts ? Are they aware of the realities ? No. An emphatic no !

And yet the media keeps on watering the naive and vulnerable minds of our people with incessant negative feed back. Presumed criminality on front page. Legal clarification and  exoneration , some where in the dark corners of the paper hardly noticeable !

Today I feel exonerated in the immediate matter of the land. The justice system has prevailed. The courts have dismissed the petition filed. The language on the petition against me used the terms ‘fraud’, ‘cheat’ and ‘threat’. It claimed that I had threatened the petitioner, Kumari, the Pradhan of the village. Kumari does not know how to read and write it has been discovered. And I have never met the lady, ever. So where do all these cooked up charges lead to. Who designs them ? With what motive ? At who’s behest ? Who funds such operations ? Legal matters are  cost incurring. And what is the final outcome ! Time, energy, Government workings, costs, media interviews to justify wrong claims, expenses … all gone to nought ! And to what avail !!

It is avery poor reflection on the state of affairs. Catch a vulnerable face and load him or her with the worst sounding allegations. The law in the country takes an awful long time to justify even a hearing. So before the matter is legally resolved hang this scoundrel, this affluent ill gotten wealth laden vermin, this reason for all the ailments of society … butcher his reputation, his name, his prestige and his dignity. Rub his make up ridden face into the slush and mud. Blacken it with the worst indelible ink and let him rot and boil in his own stew !!

What is my fault then ? That it was a crime to have devoted 41 years of my hard work in building my creativity in the field of arts. That it was a crime to have had millions of well wishers, which incidentally came of their own accord. That it was uncalled for to have been ambassadors of our country and culture in every world forum that we addressed !! That whichever country you go to you are given the respect and admiration of that government, yet in your own country all you get is abuse and false legal cooked up cases !!

Today I volunteer to work in promoting tourism in a state that belongs to this great country, absolutely free of charge, and you attack me for getting personal with its head. Get your hands and feet together, you saviors of the house and try raising your voice against Mr Ratan Tata, as he initiates another enterprise, or the Amabni’s who further strengthen their invested wealth in the state. Would you label every individual that meets the head of State as an undesirable element. I am not even doing any business in the region. I am merely asking others to come to this beautiful state to enjoy its history, its culture, its song its music, its people, and in doing so bring glory and benefit not just to the state but the nation at large. You pile allegations against the head for atrocities and desist association with him, yet shake hands with those that have initiated the killing of hundreds of innocents.

What kind of a world are we living in !!

I want to say more … but am too livid to go any further

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 11, 2010
Day 781

London,  UK                             June 10, 2010                     Thu  11 : 56 PM

For a country that has little belief in the importance of archiving, we fall way behind the desired level. The oft discussed topic of film, the Industry and its great creative talent shall only be proud of leaving behind for posterity, a bag full of gossip innuendo. For the largest film making nation in the world this is sad.

How glorious to have had greats like Raj Kapoor, Mehboob, Guru Dutt, Bimal Roy, KAsif and others talk about their craft and approach towards cinema. How enriching an experience it would have been to hear Dilip Kumar, Dev Anand, Raj Kapoor and Motilal talk of their approach to acting. How enchanting to have heard a Meena Kumari, Nargis, Madhubala, Nutan, Waheeda Rehman talk about their experiences of the work they did and to provide for this cinema hungry nation invaluable material for the younger lot to see and appreciate.

Where do we have such institute or body of people that take this kind of interest. Where is there the thought or desire to do the job as efficiently as possible. We have nothing and nothing to show.

But the desire to do something in this direction has been initiated and I hope that in the days to come some fructification of these ideas take place. We owe this not just to the film fraternity, but to the nation as such. Someday someone will see reason about this. I shall be more than happy to lend support.

After bumping into all these glorious messages motivating us to do better, act better, be better I feel we should take it upon ourselves in a personal capacity to ensure that our creative best is restored and filed.

This has been the main thrust of our conversation over dinner with Aamir tonight and I feel we shall quietly be asking others to co-operate !!

The West has very little of its own but shows it so well you actually start believing them. We must aim higher in order to get rid of the plain and ordinary. .And we must start now !!

See ya … i have begun ..

Amitabh Bachchan

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Jun 10, 2010
Day 780

London , UK                        June  9,  2010                      Wed  10 : 45 PM  GMT

The flight on Jet Airways was safe and smooth. A lot more than I had expected it to be. The cyclone ‘Phet’ had been hovering around the Arabian Sea and coastal India for long and I was apprehensive we might run into it. But all is well. The cyclone moved away or we avoided it.

The ladies in waiting in the cabin were most polite and generous. And soon after takeoff sleep moved in in fits and starts. The luxury of a bed in flight has changed the way we travel these days. Beds, movies, music, news, pop corn and a cabin to yourself where you can draw the doors for privacy is the stuff of the ultimate. I remember the day when channel music was introduced in flights and the excitement it had caused. And now this. But before this there was Regent Air in USA for the NewYork LA sector, in the 80′s and what an experience that was. A special aircraft, specially built in the interiors with limited seats, perhaps just 15 or 20 and then the works. Stretch limo picked you up from your residence and drove you right up to the door of the plane. Ticketing and luggage all taken care by the airline. There were lounges inside, bar, health club for massages and hair dressing salons, separate ‘rooms’ for movie shows – it was just too much !! On landing into waiting limo that dropped you home and the luggage already delivered at your doorstep. And great company on flight at times – Kareem Abdul Jabbar, that phenomena of basketball and the Lakers, for example.

All that has ended I believe. Private charters now offering similar if not better facilities. Your own bedroom with king size bed and private dressing area and bathroom with showers and the works. Believe one of the Saudi Arabian royalty has his private swimming pool inside his 747 Jumbo !! There is no end and limit to where and how can be done.

The more you have the more you want ! The simple human philosophy and from where we need to stay away if possible.

We hide behind our guilt at times, if at all we exercise it, by telling ourselves that we have worked so hard for all this and that we deserve it. Fair enough, but somewhere there does creep in that element of care and consideration for the others that have lesser.

The delight of meeting up with the grandchildren has been divine ! Their growth in height and weight is the first that strikes you . ‘Goodness Navya ! You have grown so much taller since I last saw you, and Agastya, what have you done to your hair. Its like a spiked porcupine … “. Common routine dialogue, even though we may have met just a week back !

But the acumen of this generation and the speed with which they think and operate is remarkable. The little ones make a mockery of our computer skills and are so adept at any problem or issue that may arise out of our Mac and iphone and iPad and handycams for computer and … the list just goes on and on ..

They laugh at the kind of queries that we put up and go about their business of running the latest gadgetry with the ease of a master. Simultaneously they shall also be respectfully answering their Mother on some domestic chore, eating their favorite ice cream and cake and swinging to their latest music idol – Justin Bebier or some such name, a 16 year old kid sensation, that had a 80,000 packed Wembley Stadium screaming their lungs out at a recent concert ; Navya and Agastya being among the crowd !!

I cuddle the two GC and boast about their Nana doing the same at a concert in 1989/90 – the Jumma Chumma Concert, and they do not pay much attention to it.

“But Nana ??!!! This is JUSTIIINNN ..!!!”

And I realize that obviously Justin has a greater place in their lives than ol’ Nani Nana !!

All in all a great day spent with them and the new gadget their Mother has presented me with … the Bloggie !! A phone like object that records video in HD and can put it on your computer instantly. More content coming your way !!

Aamir and wife Kiran are here too. He sends me a note of his presence in the same facility, I meet up with him downstairs and now we will meet up for dinner tomorrow.

I have touched the preparations for Paris just obliquely. And this is primarily because the ‘butterflies’ needed more attention !

More later .. love

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 9, 2010
Day 779

Prateeksha,  Mumbai                          June 8,  2010                        Tue  9 : 18 PM

To all those that have wished me for the IIFA Best Actor Award for Paa, may I formally thank each one of you through our blog. The trophy was delivered to me last night and shall find its rightful place among others that adorn my office, and which enjoy a pride of place not just on a shelf, but in my heart as well.

If someone had told me when I joined the Industry in 1969 that I would be winning a best actor award  40 years down the line, I would not have hesitated to recommend to him a prominent admission in an asylum ! But here it is, the award, staring at me, smirk firmly in place looking on at a bewildered me. How inconsiderate we are towards time and its probable consequences. We never have the capacity to look and perceive so far ahead. 40 years then was an absolute improbability. We were anxious about the next 40 hours ! Never ever believed that there could be possibilities beyond our nose. And this is where those that have the acumen to think the distance score above all else. Great minds that design nations, policies, constitutions, morals, businesses, futures are envied for their skill and sense of what the ordinary cannot conceive. And so we salute them, idolize and immortalize them. They are the true geniuses the icons and legends of the world. Not some two-bit 6’2″ grey french bearded film actor, called to attention by these glorious epithets, constructed by fertile journalistic minds.

It is coming on to the time for my departure overseas. I travel to Europe and to Paris for the recital of my Father’s poems at the Theatre de Champs Elysee. And the butterflies have gone insane inside. So prayers and good wishes are needed in abundance for everything to be well.

I am rushed now, but as soon as I can get to a calmer controlled air i shall be with you. Till then and till more ..

Love,

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 8, 2010
Day 778

Prateeksha,  Mumbai                      June 7, 2010                     Mon 11 : 57 PM

When time is spent with those who you love and admire, who remain with you, close and attached, that then is the time of ones life. When time is spent with those who you do not love and admire, who you know will never remain with you, unattached, then you know that that is not the time of ones life.

It is a prerequisite for all decent existence to be pinned down by harmony. Absence of harmony destroys, disrupts, angers in mock collection. For the creative mind, sensitive to all aspects of existence, this most common mode is certainly a much desired prerequisite.

I have wondered how others have existed with their own mode destroyed and vanquished. A state when nothing grows beyond the natural. It troubles me to witness ugliness and noise, deceit and unprofessionalism but …

Then I wonder why we are brought in to this world. Are we here because of our shortcomings and our life to be spent in repairing them. Or are we here merely by chance and now that we are here, lets repair ! There is definite confusion on this and it is best left so. Any attempt to resolve the malaise shall only help in increasing it.

But it is worth a ponder – even past midnight !!

The premier of ‘Raavan’ is now on at London on the 16th of June at 7 pm .. and that is all the information I have as of now. It had been settled, then cancelled, and now its on again. And now it looks like all of us shall be able to attend it. For the entire family to be together again is joy, particularly so when the grandchildren shall be there as well. Grandchildren ?? They are grand aunts and uncles now even at their modest ages of 13 and 8.

This is the modern age. People think fast, talk faster and forget even faster !

I notice from the media the trial on course for the Bhopal Gas tragedy victims. There is huge debate and consternation at the end result of those convicted for this chemical disaster. The courts have given a punishment to those involved in the Union Carbide management a jail term of 2 years. The public and most concerned voices show discontent. 15, 000 dead and hundreds suffering the after effects of the leak, and only 2 years in jail for the management of the Company !!? They are all in absolute shock on the outcome – an outcome after 25 years have passed when the disaster occurred. They are out on the streets in protest and the pain of such act is to be felt to be believed. I see the electronic media drumming up support for those they feel have been unfairly treated. And the strength of the media along with an act that no one can deny is horrendous, shall garner enough of it to perhaps get the victims better justice.

Its a long wait for justice, but one does not mind the justice or how long it will take, so long as justice is done. The people here feel it has not been done fairly and voice their opinion on it too.

Whenever it is time to think a response for a question that you put up, it may take some time. But waiting is never a neglected force. One can wait for years for justice to prevail.

The World Cup Football fever has now pitched itself beyond repair. Teams from different countries have descended on South Africa and the betting and madness of this event is all over. Every second person has an opinion on the final victor. Teams from Brazil and Argentina seem to have caught the fancy of us all.. but without a doubt their is always a hidden agenda for those that put their money in it. There is keenness for a group that wishes to be there in the midst of it all to feel the punch of entertainment and game. My home enthusiasts … well just one … Mr Abhishek Bachchan has expressed his absolute desire to be there for the final. I know where this is coming from. A WC Final in Los Angeles many years ago between Italy and Brazil – what a dream match – had instigated such interest. And we all just got up and left for the United States of America to attend this great pairing off.

Maybe that was an impulsive act, but one that we never regretted. Then it was I that had suggested that we go, now it is Abhishek that is doing so. Sometimes it is difficult to refuse a good offer, especially when it comes from one of your own !!

It remains in limbo ..

Who do you support ??

Great love and sincere affection

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 7, 2010
Day 777

Prateeksha,  Mumbai                           June  6,  2010                         Sun  11 : 40 PM

The rain lashes in bits and pieces, perhaps preparing us for what lies ahead as the monsoons travel up from Kerala – much awaited and desired. There have been some strong winds and slashing rain in certain northern parts of the country and the east, ebbing away after a committed down pour and then .. silence. An entire nation waits and depends on this singular phenomena to occur. Water shortages, dried up lakes and water conservation bodies, crops, economy – all dependent upon the monsoon, or ‘chaumasa’ as it is referred to in Gujarat. ‘Chau’ meaning four, ‘masa’ month. Four months. Perhaps the time period of the rain. I think that may be the right interpretation. Do correct me if I am wrong.

There is a happy anticipation of this weather in all. The oppressive heat has taken its toll and the earth needs to cool down. The plants and trees need to smile again. Special foods need to be cooked again. And as it ends, the festival of Ganesh and thereafter Navratri and Dushehra, Diwali and the new year all follow rapidly, bringing happiness and cheer among us. Rain !! Such a savior. Songs written on it. Indian classical has ‘ragas’ composed on it. Some ‘ragas’ so strong in performance that if sung or played correctly can bring on the rain so they say. Much like a western classical opera’s high notes could break a wine glass with its pitch of sound.

So the water proofing shall be on test again. Shades and covers to protect homes from the onslaught are up, lined as they are with plastic sheets to keep the water away from sensitive areas. An sms joke starts doing the rounds as the rains start up – ‘time to put away all else and pull out the rubber dingy’s for travel’ – a sarcasm on the water logging that shall invariably take place when there is a heavy downpour.

Time to take those long drives on Marine Drive and Worli sea faces for the hot and freshly prepared, ‘bhutta’, or corn on the cob. And closer home the ‘pakodas’ with a hot drink, a curl up on a comfortable couch and either a book or the Tv by your side.

Abhishek came in from Istanbul late in the night, his film wrapped and over – GAME ! Produced by Farhan Akhtar and directed by Abhinav Deo. He now gets into promotional work for ‘Raavan’ along with Aishwarya as soon as she returns from Paris after attending Rolland Garros French Open Tennis. She is the brand ambassador for Longines the main sponsor at the game and has a mandatory appearance to make.

Nadal wiped out Soderling in a fantastic display of clay court tennis today in the final, regained his lost glory from last year and is now among the record setters at this venue. Five times winner as compared to four from some other greats. Many are perhaps unaware that I was for a time in the national coaching scheme in Delhi, just before joining University. Played and trained under some of the stalwarts of the game at the Raj Kumari Amrit Kaur Coaching Scheme at the National Stadium, until university class timings prevented me from going any further. Now, I enjoy the game on the television and on occasion have had the opportunity to attend some of the great venues – Wimbledon, Rolland Garros, US Open. Being at these historic places is an altogether different experience. You cannot compare it with any other.

For long, questions have been raised in public, private and in media on the excessive presence of film celebrities on social sites, internet, brand advertising, television and a host of other facilities, other than what their profession takes them through. There is concern among them that our value and worth is being diluted by involving ourselves in such acts and that the much protected and prized mystique has fast eroded.

Stars and actors were introduced to the audiences through film. The first impressions were unnatural. Large screens, darkened theaters, and acts being performed that were the epitome of fantasy. There was a mystery around these exalted bodies. But now, say the purists, that has disappeared. There is too much effort, to be seen and known in the public sphere by the celebrities through mediums like the net and mobile and Tv.

The argument is valid and pertinent too, but does not satisfy me. I argue that the entire market of connectivity and mediums has changed exponentially. Even if we tried to keep secluded, the presence of Tv and other facilities would make sure that we failed. The presence and the power of these information mediums is so strong and so ‘every where’ it would be impossible to keep them at bay. The question is not how you are presented, but how many times you are presented. The value of the visual, of the word, of the presence of the celebrity is such an integral part of the mediums commerce, that it would be impossible to put curbs on it. I think such a vast apparatus would, even without moving an eye lid, remove any traces of the so called mystique that most of us are being accused of losing.

Move with the times. Get followed. Get filmed. Get talked to. Get opinion from. Get your privacy invaded. Get spoken of, not spoken to. Get going !!

Even if you did not want it, you would get it. Its all about how you market yourself. It has become the bigger tool, if not the biggest. 10% talent 1000% marketing and you are through. In my most formative years in the Industry I shunned every advertising offer. For me my creativity, the little that I possessed, needed to be kept in pristine condition. But look at me now – advertising, film, tv, branding, mobile, internet, blog, moblog, twitter, Bachchan bol and soon the visual connect. It is no wonder then that opinion makers start screaming and screeching on an issue like this when it comes up. But it is unavoidable. Even if you did not want it, the sheer inescapable compulsion because of its presence through invention, would compel you to be a part of it. Willingly or unwillingly you will find yourself on that bill board – ready to market your product, or be the cause of propaganda through activist aggression.

Good night ! I am being stalked !

Amitabh Bachchan

Amitabh Zibbu, our very committed FmXt from Jaipur celebrates his 37th birthday today. We wish him all the best . Happiness success and good health. He compares this his 37th year with our 37 years of marriage and marks it as a happy coincidence.

Jun 6, 2010
Day 776

Prateeksha,  Mumbai                         June  5,  2010                          Sat  11 : 52 PM

It was the look on the face of the little boy holding the bouquet of flowers at 5 in the morning that moved me. This is the group of fans from a nearby resort Amidhara that had put up the banner outside their facility and on the drive from where I was to pass.

I felt that our driving away was so inconsiderate to the boy, who must have had so much expectancy as he stood their waiting for me to acknowledge him, that I requested the administration to see if a meeting could be arranged in the morning. All efforts failed and so I thought as we drive to Diu to catch  a plane for Mumbai it would be desirable to stop at their resort. And so I did. I apologized on my behavior to them did some pictures and autographs and then drove away, satisfied that I was able to bring some comfort to my guilt.

It was not my fault entirely. A entire security and police contingent and routine was deputed to travel along with me. The administration have their own protocol and breaking that suddenly, would have caused them some consternation too. But I explained to them my agony the next morning and they understood. All is well that ends well and I am happy that it did.

The people of the Gujarat area where I travelled have been so warm and affectionate. They have shown love and enthusiasm to my cause and have generally been overwhelmingly well disciplined. My deepest regard to them. In not a single venue did I face any kind of unruly behavior ; they were cultured and obedient but never did stop to express their joy in finding me in their midst. I do look forward to being in their midst again soon, to take up the second phase of the program.

Emotions are an integral part of human nature. As a nation and as a community, we are emotional people. There is that within us and also basic love and tolerance. We are a most tolerant nation. We know where the mistakes are, what is wrong and where things are not going correct. But we have become tolerant to all this. I guess having been suppressed through invasion over hundreds of years, it has now become our cultural nature.

But we are emerging rapidly away from it. We are assertive in a pleasant sort of way now and greater value and pride rests on us. The development of our economic structure is without a doubt the reason why we are looking different and progressive. That we attract a large portion of world attention is no mere coincidence. The world looks at us differently now !

I think one of the most depressing moments apart from the country losing an international sporting event, has to be the moment of walking into an empty home. It is just not the same.

There is an air of activity when the house is full and busy. Different members of the family in different parts of the house. They all do their things, but at least they are under the same roof. All gathering together in one corner of the house, chatting sharing and discussing matters. This is an ecstatic moment. There is unasked energy flowing in. Optimism rules and all positive thoughts fructify into a bundle of laughter and togetherness.

This I love. And do at times pine for it to happen.

My FmXt is no less in its expectations. Members have their own agenda worked out for them and hopefully we shall be able to cope with their desires and expectations soon.

It is good to wait for that moment of fulfillment, for it can only enhance our beings. Impatience would destroy it. It would not be desired to be a strung up bow, pulled to its final extension all the time, like a ‘tana hua teer’. What good does it do to us when we will remain in such state always. Nothing. But, when it disappears life comes back within us almost. It is impossible to describe this feel, but feel it does and does become the reason for our moods. Let us discourage such attitude to harbor within us. Not for any other reason but to prevent ill health.

Bodies will heal, voices and stands will mellow down, if we were to understand this very special and worthy factor. It is not a sign of weakness to not be assertive. Contrarily, it has been known to be our greatest strength. Let us all then be strong and healthy. Let us live to live and nothing else.

With my love and with my health …

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 5, 2010
Day 775

Sasan Gir,  Gujarat                       June  4,  2010                    Fri  11 : 18 PM



Somnath …!!

Read so much about it in history, heard so much about it, talked so much about it and today .. I stand before it, reliving all those years of mention in a moment of my life.

Its an hours drive from Sasan Gir to Somnath and in order to take the first shot as the sun rises above the sky and the sea, we leave at 5 am. It is dark still, but the darkness breathes an air of freshness, of moist early morning dew. As we speed away through well maintained roads a large banner decorated on the side of a crossing with some people standing by with bouquets almost misses my eye. The light is not enough to notice them and we drive away past them. Later in the evening as I scan through the days pictures I notice their orderly yet quiet presence and feel terrible at not having stopped to greet them and accept the bouquet that they must have taken great pains to collect at this early hour. If I can find a way to meet them tomorrow I shall feel a bit better .. will push the administration to help me out.

The location of the temple is by far one of the best that I have seen – by the sea and on a land that has been chosen with great care. Elevated on greyish sand hills that flow down to the lashing Arabian Sea, it presents a post card moment which ever way you look at it. A pillar on the edge announces that the arrow pointing on it is the direction to the South Pole, and that from here there is no land obstruction till the southern most point of the globe – just the sea and the ocean.

Somnath was rich in its ornamentation and invader upon invader that attacked India from the West ravaged and looted this property and indeed tried on many occasions to destroy our very identity and our culture. But faith cannot be wiped out by destroying a few structures and despite several attempts, faith prevailed and the temple was rebuilt each time. Its present state is a little more modern and is the gift of Sardar Vallabhai Patel, that great leader and freedom fighter, contemporary of Gandhi and Nehru, who had it reconstructed in 1948.

The temple houses the Shiv ling, or one of the 12 Jyotirlings, the essence of Lord Shiv, inside the sanctum sanctorum and is one of the first among the other temples that houses it. I have spent a quiet day around it and inside, in some contemplation. Faith and belief and its manifestation into these magnificent structures that symbolized prayer and devotion, have such an imposing presence in the world of the human. When so much is still unknown to us, when nature provides us with baffling adventures each moment, when not a single leaf or plant or insect or any living breathing object is the same, the power and force of the unknown element that is manufacturing all this, becomes deserving of these edifices of devotion and divinity. Was there ever an outer world presence in our world ? Did some one roam our planet that possessed supernatural powers ? Did they become our Gods and Goddesses ? Where did they come from and why did they go away ? Do they still look upon us now and do they conduct our lives as they may have done before ? So many questions and so many unanswered. Somewhere we have tired and withdrawn ourselves from seeking those answers. Too complicated and intense. Better to submit to the next best alternative – faith, prayer, temples, religion. Many answers found here. Many believers too. Numbers provoke us and propel us to follow. When millions are saying so, better to join them than to stand alone and differ. There is greater security and strength in numbers. When you follow your responsibility reduces. They were doing it, so I went along too. A nice alibi in a sense. Convenient and of some comfort. Let it rest there.

This shoot has come to an end, well at least this section of it. The first phase of the campaign is over. It has covered some important areas of the State. In time other areas will be covered when I shall return. But suffice to say that it has been a most interesting and educative experience and I do hope that the cause that we have promoted, fructifies.

Meanwhile back home travels continue. Aishwarya left Istanbul today for Paris. She endorses Longines the watch company and since it is a sponsor for Rolland Garros, the French Open Tennis, she is required as per contract to attend it. Abhishek returns tomorrow to Mumbai as do I, until he sets off again to attend the premiere of Raavan in London on the 16th of this month. And I shall prepare for my recital in Paris on the 13th !! And the shivers begin !!

Fans have the ability to keep your spirits going and as one can see even in remote Somnath, there are still a few who show allegiance – and some indeed replication !! Or their version of it. Look -

Ha ha .. could do with a bit of grey in the hair though !!

Love and love and more .. have not been able to respond with the jaundiced lines, but tomorrow is another day ..

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 4, 2010
Day 774

Sasan Gir,  Gujarat                                June  3,  2010                              Thu  7 : 43 PM

Glancing through some of my Father’s works last evening, as I gave a recital to some of the people working with me on this project, I came across two thoughts which I felt I wanted to share with my Extended Family. The first was a short poem on pain and the other is an extract from the Foreward he wrote on the release of one of his books. I am not endeavoring to Romanise the Hindi. Those that read the script shall read it and understand. Those that do not, will only benefit from its translation that I now attempt to put forth. The poem is titled : PAIN and I Pain arose And kept increasing in intensity Pain quivered in agony Pain spoke, screamed, shouted Raised the whole house on its head Even beckoned the people outside, Everyone spoke to pain Comforted stroked it, I got left behind. Pain came, I welcomed it into my heart, Cajoled it, sweet talked it, made it understand, It is futile to cry and weep, The world is full of crying and weeping, Come let us sing together, Liven up this isolated lonely home, Liven up these isolated moments of time Liven up these isolated lonely hearts ! Which epic has stipulated (in writing) That life is all about being grim That sadness is the epitome of life – I set the tone of my song, Pain joined me in tune Pain became my partner . Pain, the moment he became one with me said – “I am without medication, without cure !” I said “ Then what’s the point of screaming “ He said “ Then what will we get by singing ?” I tolerated my pain, subdued it, Pain became my slave, my follower !! What follows below is the extract from a foreword of one of his books “Aarti aur Angaare”. The extract has been kept short, though the entire foreword is worth reading, for, he analysis his own style of writing, his own assessment of his poems and the learnings from some other greats of the western world -


“ It is my belief that for a poet to write a long poem he must be the master of his own time. Once you sit down to write then your eyes should not wander to either the clock or the calendar. I was not fortunate enough to have got this benefit. In order to earn a living for my family I have had to do several other unconnected things. I sit down to write and lo ! its time now to go to the courts, to reach the University, be present at the parade, now be in office ! Inspiration, if symbolized by a clock, should not be burdened by the discipline of the hour and minute hands. The realities of life show no grace to the ‘timepieces’ of inspiration and neither do they give them any kind of liberty. It is not possible that the needle playing on the record of a winding ‘inspiration’ gramophone, be removed at exactly thirty minutes past nine, and then at thirty minutes past four be placed back on exactly the same spot. The ‘needle of inspiration’ once removed is removed. I have found it to be impossible to remove the ‘needle’ once and put it back again at the same spot. But I respect the realities of life, indeed I love them. I never wrote poetry because I was unable to do anything else or did not want to. ‘Sab jagah asamarth hun mai is wajah se toh nahi tera hua hoon !’ (a line from one of his works) Just because I have been incapable in other places is not the reason I have become yours .. If life was devoid of realities there would be no meaning to life. There can be a meaning to life without poetry. I do not live in order to write, I write to make life stronger and meaningful to make it more defensive. If someone were to come and offer to me that he would take care of all my worries so that I could write freely, my writing would stop. It is this image of  a poet that attracts me – “Bojh sir par, kanth mei swar…’ (a line from one of his works) A burden on my head, but a song in my voice .. There is a saying I our colloquial Avadhi – ‘putau meet, bhatarau meet, kiriya kekar khaaun’. Meaning, my son is dear to me and so is my husband, who do I swear by. The realities of life are dear and the ‘time hours’ of inspiration too. Who do I sacrifice. I have reached some kind of an understanding on this and for many days I have been practicing it. I have understood that lengthy poems are not my cup of tea. Why do I not break up those emotions that demand a long poem, into smaller pieces so that each portion becomes part of a smaller poem. Even in my very busy attention towards the realities of life, I should at least be able to take out an hour or two,  to complete a few shorter poems. In my many collections, perhaps the presentation in isolation of the smaller poems is perhaps the reason for their presence. Though a principle of the great Edgar Alan Poe does justify some truth in his belief that poems can never be long or lengthy, because the human brain cannot tolerate such a large and intense aggression of emotion for too long a time. When poems are long, then the seriousness of the emotions they convey get diluted. Another great poet comes to mind – I forget his name – who said that, every long and lengthy poem is the serialization of several small poems. It is quite possible that behind the presentation of my poems, there is not just the show of my limitations, but unknowingly the principles of these greats at work. I have never given this any special analysis.” It is desirable then to overcome pain it is imperative to bear it and keep it suppressed. When this is done, pain becomes your slave.

And inspiration  does not need to be burdened by time .. leave it free for it to flow. Constrain it and you will lose its thread !

The evening was spent with the Sidi tribe – a people of African descent, now naturalized in Gujarat. Apparently they were brought by erstwhile Maharajas many years ago for purposes of labor and have now settled here. Their features are African, but they speak Gujarati and sometimes their native Swahili. take a look -

Tomorrow morning another early call. Its the famous Somnath Temple and its glory and history ..

Love to you

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 3, 2010
Day 773

Sasan Gir, Gujarat                          June  3 ,  2010                       Thu  8 : 00 AM

To all of my extended family that wish Jaya and me on our Anniversary -
A very big thank you and our love !

Amitabh Bachchan – Jaya

Jun 3, 2010
Day 772

Sasan Gir, Gujarat                       June 2,  2010                       Wed  11 : 31 PM

There comes a time in the lives of us that go as humans, when nature in all its glory drowns our great belief, that superiority was a word not just coined by us, but one that we defined as an indicator of our exceptional existence.

This morning, as we set off early into the Gir forests to ‘be with the lions’, I realized how ridiculously minuscule we are in comparison to that ‘belief’.

After a few stock shots that were composed by the side of a natural lake carrying, we are told, 200 crocodiles – how they determine these figures still intrigues me – and talking about the Girnar Hills that existed even before the Himalayan Everest, we sauntered off further in for another half an hour, until the trackers informed us that a pride of lions was due to arrive at a water hole.

Gearing ourselves up for the moment we reached the spot and waited in silence as the ‘watchamacallits’ strolled off nonchalantly towards where the lion was to arrive, not in the least bothered about their safety. I am amazed at their level of fearlessness and the proficiency that they exhibit.

I think the wait took a while, for the silence and the early morning call caught up with me and I nodded off.

Sudden movements jolted me out of my reverie and I discovered that animated discussions, albeit in silent gestures and whispers, were being conducted around our grouping. A gentle knock on my glass pane where I was seated, indicated that all was set for ‘the’ King to arrive and that I should get seated into the open wagon that was going to capture the moment along with my dialogues as the ‘element of our motive’ arrived.

Camera securely in hand by the DOP clinging to the side of the jeep, me positioned on the edge, another focus puller and the director excitedly standing to give directions, we pulled away from the gang towards what looked like a small water hole beneath a cluster of dry trees. The water hole was man made, cemented, the size of three or four large bathing tubs, with a barren dirt road leading up to it.

We positioned the jeep, with me, by the side closest to the water hole and by my side, hand holding the 435 X Arri Camera, the DOP framing my face in the foreground ( alliteration !). And stood still and with hope, fear, anxiety, excitement all racing passed our eyes, brain, bodies.

A walkie talkie crackle !! A whisper and then … movement near the hole !!

And there, mirage like, almost mingled in the dry foliage … the gentle, controlled, confident undisturbed, sauntering .. LION !! And no not just one, many … hold on they are just coming in numbers .. 3, 4 its 7 of them, led by the male lion , two females and cubs ! They calmly come up to the water and start drinking. The older male leaves the hole and sits down by the side, the others still moving about the water. They are still some distance form us – I mean about 50 yards !

The senior then feels the need to leave and does so followed by in turn, the females and then the cubs. Soon they have disappeared where they appeared from and there is a bit of consternation among the director and the camera department because they wanted more.

Some one heard this conversation and soon the trackers were seen running off in the direction of the pride as though they were trying to stop them from going away from us. The audacity of these men ! I mean come on, these .. are lions we are talking of, untamed and wild, you do not treat them like street dogs that can be ‘hooshed’ away with sticks !!

But.. excuse me this is exactly what they have done. They have gone before them and stood around in front of their direction of travel and urged them to turn back. And what do you know .. they have indeed turned back !! And now we see the entire lot moving towards us. Thus is just amazing… and they keep coming and coming .. and are now .. a few feet away from my hand !!

A look through their stern faces and they walk past as though we did not exist. The director is going crazy whispering excited instructions –

“Start the camera ! Pan left, back to the lions, get the other one, here here this one is coming straight towards us, shift focus to Amitji, Amitji dialogue dialogue , pan pan there are others, cut cut cut … no no do not cut keep rolling…”

Quietly in their relaxed easy mode of movement they have all just walked past us and into the other side of the forest and disappeared.

We all look at each other. No words are exchanged.

Director – “ Did you get all that ?”

DOP – ‘What do you think they were all around us !!”

Ok lets move on ..

Back to the initial base the team has been waiting with bated breathe. We come in and exult ! Its been an experience ! Never seen anything like this before.

I ask for the trackers to come along to thank them for this delight. They all assemble for a keepsake and I wonder where they get their courage from.

Its hereditary they inform me. It’s a family tradition for them, their grandfathers have been doing it for ages, now them.

I also am informed of the Maldharis , the tribe that lives within the sanctuary. They have refused to move out despite being warned of the dangers of their existence in this tricky environment. They have declined. They actually love the lion. They say it never has attacked them or their little children who play around in the forest. In fact they say the lion is a great boon for them, because it saves their crops from getting destroyed by the other bodies present there – nilgai, boars, panther and their likes.

The population of the lions has grown well – almost 12 %. As also the population of the deer and cheetal and sambhar that roam the forest. They are the ones the lion hunts for his meal and conservationists inform, enhanced ‘feed’ is a good sign for the lions to grow in number.

As we drive back away from the site of the sighting, the clouds break open and lashing rain enlivens the arid forest paths. The leaves start smiling, the earth breathes in the essence of this drenching rain and suddenly the sparse environment changes rapidly into a most welcome surrounding.

A cyclone is developing in the Arabian Sea and reports have it that it is likely to travel towards Gujarat and hit the coastal areas. The lashing rain is proof that it is so far on course. I wish safety for all..

I had desired tonight to post some poems and writings from my Father, but that shall have to wait for another day. Today I am so consumed with how the day has gone that I shall be unable to do any else.

So .. I shall leave you till the morrow and yes … my Bachchan Bol people inform me that the numbers on this entity have now gone beyond 300,000 and that those that wish to subscribe to it need to dial : *5000*

Good night … with love and more ..

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 2, 2010
Day 771

Saasan Gir, Gujarat                       June  1,  2010                        Tue  10 : 03 PM

A quick farewell at Bhuj and the farm house where I had lodged myself. Old friend Lalit Suri, whom we lost very suddenly, had a thriving hotel business – some of the most prominent facilities being in Delhi, Srinagar, Mumbai and Goa and now spreading around the country. After his demise his wife Jyoti has taken over the working and renamed all the facilities after her husbands name, Lalit. All the Hotels are now The Lalit. A strong and dedicated woman, she has single handedly worked in keeping the flag flying and indeed adding to it hands on, through intense and efficient management. This farm house was hers, her father having started his business from Bhuj.

The charter took barely 40 minutes to cover the distance to Diu, south of Gujarat and the nearest airfield to Saasan Gir, our next destination. Diu is a Union Territory now, but was before part of Goa along with Daman a separate region bordering Mumbai. Now Goa has become an independent state and Diu and Daman Union Territories – erstwhile Portuguese colonized land. Diu is a small island sitting on the protruding peninsula north of Mumbai and lush green with vegetation. It was a pleasant change to see green again after the arid dry Kutch.

From Diu, it was a two hour drive to Saasan Gir. This will be our camp for the next few days. We shall be shooting in the Gir sanctuary and then be visiting the temple of Somnath.

After a short rest we set off again into the forest … ‘rest’ into the ‘forest’, hah hah a bit of rhyme again .. now back to the dry land and wilderness to search for the lions. Not too long into the drive, the indication came in from the advance stalking party that they had been sighted. The number of vehicles and personnel were reduced. Lions do not particularly like the presence of a crowd and very cautiously we drove deeper into the woods.

And then almost suddenly stopped ! The stalkers or rangers or what ever one calls them, who were on foot, motioned to us that they were close by and that we should get our cameras ready. I looked around in the foliage and stark leaf less trees and bushes, but nothing was visible. The brave men on foot who had stopped ahead, now invited us forward. Shouldn’t they be inside the jeeps I thought ! But no ! Instead, they in the most dramatic manner, as if they were presenting a new bride to us, waved their hands towards their right and … there they were .. three females .. panting heavily because of the heat under the sparse shade of dry fierce looking branches of fallen and lifeless tree !! We were secure in the jeep just 30 feet away from them. But the ‘whatchamacallits’ were barely 15 feet away, least bothered about panting cats and animatedly asking us whether we wanted to see their cubs just a little further in. I declined and nervously asked them to get away from beast. They thought I was in need of dear help and disappointedly waved their hands up in the air, whispered a quick adieu to solo maiden on the floor,  two having walked away almost in disgust, and grumbling, strolled back, not concerned about their precarious positioning at all. Ride to Gir over ! Shall be back tomorrow morning. Incredible !!

There are in the last census, 411 of the lions left. Recent reports say they have marginally increased in number, much to the delight of the administration. I believe they were shifted to the forests of Madhya Pradesh near by, to preserve them better, but the environment did not suit them and they were brought back to Gir. How ? I do not know ! But they are back and doing well. Only two regions in the world where lions exist in the wild – Africa and India.

I smile within myself at some of the welcome banners put up on the street corners, shops and resort homes on the drive in to this lodge, for it would be embarrassing for me to upload them. I smile within myself at some of the welcome exultations from eager fans. I smile not to disrespect them, I smile at the innocence of their enthusiasm. Really the common man on the streets, in the villages in every day life, is really so endearing, warm, charitable. We urbanites would take a lifetime to imbibe what they possess – the simplicity of life and living !!

What a magnificent country we own. And it is only when you visit these places yourself do you realize, that its not just the greatness of the domain that makes this land so wonderful and blessed, it is the man on the street, the commoner that gives this nation its strength and its glory !

Long live India. And long live those that truly inhabit it …

Amitabh Bachchan

Jun 1, 2010

May 2010

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Day 770 (i)

Bhuj, Gujarat                     May 31,  2010                     Mon  11 : 29 PM

Some of you had wondered where I was in the Palace of Prag Mahal. And some had wanted to know how I transported myself on the Rann. Well it was piggy backing good ol’ Mr Kumar of ‘chasing paper script to Pakistan’ fame !!

And some of you had not been able to see the jackals clearly on the pictures yesterday. I got some that were closer -

Love

Amitabh Bachchan

May 31, 2010
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