Jalsa, Mumbai Nov 30/1 Dec, 2013 Sat/Sun 1:21 am
It was there till the evening and then this evening it has disappeared - the warmth and the joy and the fulfilment and the shear sense of accomplishment at the Penguin Lecture …
Pictures and visuals and recordings shall remain there for posterity. This generation and the generation that follows shall have such a collossal benefit of documentation. This generation and the coming nexts shall also have the benefit of preservation ..
Some elements that prophesy the death of record and its futility, shall be the first to bend in agreement to what they have missed in the past and what in the coming ..
My own shall best be forgotten, but mine own shall live forever, as is depicted in the second visual - a seriously involved Shweta ..
Hopefully they shall remember the moments spent, just as I have recollected the moments spent with my Father ..
Those moments which carry with them the affection of the elders, the love of the Mother, the discipline of the Father, shall always be the guiding force …
We in general take our liberties with the Mother, the Father though for some reason is feared and distanced from …. not from any cause for dislike but perhaps the respect and the last word order decision from them …
Each time I yawn … objects that fly around without our knowledge and permission, make confused entries into the portals where the tongue resides along with some of the more crunching utensils ; white and hard in color .. the elements perish, but the portal dislikes their presence even after they have been either swallowed or crushed beyond all ..
Dear me it gets morbid all the way .. time to stop and contemplate, think …
For the night shall be long tonight … a rare off day and the desire to sleep in for as long as one wishes ..
Be well and without mischief ..
Its a day of the kids … as you may well observe ..
Sopaan, New Delhi Nov 29, 2013 Fri 11: 56 am
The closest I ever got to penguins was when I did the English and Hindi commentary, on the French documentary that won the Oscars, ‘The march of the Penguins’ .. they were a fascinating breed of bird, animal , what ? I never knew …!!
Until this evening when I flew down to participate in the Penguin Annual Lecture, to Delhi at a Stadium built for the purpose of sports, I had not discovered that their intricate nature of behaviour is no different from the great publishing House that my hosts for the evening were and are and shall be ..
But of that much later …
All one can say at the moment is what is being depicted in the picture soon after the event concluded .. but it was a most rewarding experience ..
I am exhausted with the apprehension and the fear of facing the masses at the venue, but am subsequently relieved to learn that the attitude is not to you, one that brings in the warmth of the plants, the flowers, in particularly the … Nargis ..
The ‘Nargis’ has the most affectionate bearing as a flower, but sitting beside it one shall realise what its actual properties are - the softness of its colour, the gentle yet subtle whiff of its fragrance, all of it go to make it an exceptional flower … and with its gentleness I slip deeper into the abyss of my deserved dreams ..
Good night … back to morrow to Mumbai and work …
Jalsa, Mumbai Nov 28/29, 2013 Thu/Fri 2 : 40 am
the preparations for the penguin Lecture have taken up most of the day and night and perhaps more …
It is time to rest this weary body … the shoot for Kalyan Jewellers along with the other greats from the South … and then back home and discussions with the city Police force in the promoting of audio visuals to contain certain crimes .. thereafter to a wedding .. Mahesh Bhatt’s nephew … and to pick up Abhishek on the way from Mehboob Studio where he shoots for ‘HNY’ ..
BUT … these people are not interested in work … sitting in the comfort of ShahRukh Khan’s vanity van and immersed in a PS4 game of football, they take their own time to come out, until I have to barge in their and … well … also get immersed in the game !!
No … but Boman/Sonu Sood vs SRK/Abhishek ended in a win for the latter couple who played some meticulous soccer for Chelsea !! It really is quite remarkable how these tv games have evolved …
Then next door to wedding reception of Mukesh Bhatt’s son … I had been to Mukesh Bhatt’s wedding too … now that of his son … !!!
Now a retirement beckons … early flight tomorrow …. doing up the speech … and leaving almost with nothing packed ..
Good night …. and my love
Jalsa, Mumbai Nov 27/28, 2013 Wed/Thu 12:09 am
Kala Yadav … wishing you a most wonderful day …. your birthday ! Love and greetings from us all ….
The structures that come up sphinx like in and around the regions of the city are awe-inspiring. The design the architecture, their locations and their construct leave nothing to imagination … and all around them the wonderful sights of young men and women, shoulder bags slung along, animated in their demeanour their work their existence for a better tomorrow. The youth of India, the largest percentage from 35 to 18 is designing the largest and most artistic visions for the country !
In a day is the invitation to the Penguin Lecture .. they tell me a most prestigious event. I have to speak, I shall have to face the questions in conversation with Rajdeep Sardesai, I shall need to give a topic for discussion ..
A mere film actor .. an entity infra dig through the years of the existence of the medium, today in elite company ? In the company of literature and writing and thinkers and magicians of the word ? Seems improbable, but true … Indian Cinema has had its way and has proven to all, its standing, its level playing ground, its value and worth, whatever it maybe … to the psyche of humans all over the universe … and what a moment of pride it is for me to be an element, of most minute proportion, in this exciting and rewarding medium …
Literature, writing, words … and cinema ! Incongruous perhaps … but true and valid … not just in its recognition, or its escapist liberty, but in its recognition of that very polished mirror of society.
I shall bear the cynicism … the harsh dismissal of our creativity .. the one sided approach taken by those that seek comfort in the Queen’s English to assess and analyse a product that primarily and only primarily distinguishes itself in the language of the region .. not in its more, so called, sophisticated avatar … but I shall not .. just will not succumb to, the impressions of one, when it versus a billion !!
Long may we survive and long may we exist … ever .. in cohesive togetherness ..
" I may not agree, but I shall not ever take away your right to disagree "
Some one important said that didn’t they ..
Love to you
Jalsa, Mumbai Nov 26/27, 2013 Tue/Wed 2:55 am
It is the birth of another day , today the 27th Nov as the clock passes the time lines of 12 into another 12 ..
My Father born in 1907 .. in remembrance and will and love and poetry .. in writing in philosophy, in the truths of life in words ..
In the upbringing of values and trust .. in the teachings of the common and ordinary, but yet so profound ..
In the presence of his aura, his wealth of knowledge and his writing … in the presence of every pursuit of life in my life … reflected through shadows albeit, but trusted and valued ..
In his command and his strictures … in his beliefs .. in his prayers and his pertinence of them .. in his silences and his quiet resolve … in his learned self … in his contributions still employed …
In his room of his work … in his feelings for the day and that of many .. in his determination and will … and mostly in his being …
My Father … !!
Jalsa, Mumbai Nov 25/26, 2013 Mon/Tue 1:17 am
The green and the yellow associates me with the football team of Brazil .. but it is a work specially done only in Bengal ..
The day has been spent in emotion and scenes related to it .. the eyes are therefore sore, and more importantly demand to be rested ..
'Bhootnath Returns' continues, at locations in and at the Film City .. songs important scenes make up rooms …. all still around with some aesthetic changes but still the same .. same enough to bring back all the recollections of the days spent within it …
Forbes, the economist set up, interviews me … for God knows what ..
An endorsement deal meets up to discuss association … at 71 they conduct a research on why they need me .. its embarrassing to even mention what they statistically prove .. why me ….?
I check on the ‘little one’ as she completes her bath .. a shrill scream of excitement greets me as I enter the .. er .. euphemism ?
The lowest rib on the left rib cage troubles my stance with pain .. how and when it came into existence, I know not …
The invitation for speeches continues .. from many prestigious organisations .. their know how on how it must be me is strange and more than unfounded .. why me .. ?
It has to be said … the camera and the shooting realm is beyond description for me … it lightens up the day and the night at times .. but the key word is, that it enlightens …
Forbes asks me to talk of philanthropy and my involvement ..
I give them the standard line of ‘it being done, not talked about’ , but I still talk about it at length, urging them not to mention it in their article .. but I am certain that they will .. speak and be damned, not speak and me damned ..
Key word here is not ‘speak’ but ‘damned’ … hehehe .. !!
Thats … ‘BR’ … not the production house BR Films, but ‘Bhootnath Returns’ ..
…… and that is ‘chinna Ravi’, or the small Ravi … DOP of ‘Ram Leela’ … he assisted Ravi K Chandran the other genius from the world of photography .. and one whom Sanjay Leela Bhansali has often worked with ..
Me stupid as ever .. thinking it was Ravi K Chandran that shot the film ‘RL’, sent him the flowers and the note … but to his credit realising that I had made a mistake had the note and flowers delivered to ‘Chinna Ravi’
Chinna Ravi, meets me on the sets this afternoon and coveys my error ..! But also confided his most amazing life story to me .. a story of will and vision and their realisations … of a rare determination and an even rarer character …
Good night … I do not have much more to say … gave a vivid description of my Ef to Forbes !! Felt proud that they heard me out wide eyed and in great appreciation .. you made that happen, so the credit must be yours … as is always the case ..
Jalsa, Mumbai Nov 24, 2013 Sun/Mon 12 : 14 am
The Nargis .. its color in white and orange …it simple beauty, its freshness, its perfumed smell .. its lingering presence … its attraction, its presence in our lives, or of those that live in and around it … simply the greatest ..
And then the Sunday crowds .. !! Always a joy to be with them ..
and then to bed for the work tomorrow ..
Sopaan, New Delhi Nov 23, 2013 Sat 11:45 PM
Luminosity on head and neck
Joining the revelry on dancing deck ..
Birthday dude is covered in hood
Others bringing in the generous mood …
वर्ष नव, हर्ष नव
जीवन उत्कर्ष नव ..
Agastya's birthday … enters his 'teen' … here to wish him … back tomorrow … the undulating lanes and streets and locations of Delhi … the years spent here in extreme formative periods ..
Am I a true representative of this great land .. I am born from Uttar Pradesh and Sikh Punjab, in Allahabad middle class … 14 years later I shift to the hills of Naintal, and resident in Delhi … school and college and university all for the 15 odd years there .. working at first job in Bengal, Kolkata and then 45 years almost in Mumbai with film …
So where do I belong … never ever did I debate this point … for I am Bharatiya, an Indian !
A universal Indian in many respects .. my wife comes from Bengal, my brother marries into Sindh, my son marries into Mangalorean and Karnataka regions, my daughter into industrial Punjabi … so where do I describe myself from other than the fact that I am Indian …
Does it really matter where and what my region is ? Does it really matter whether I speak the multiple languages of the nation ? or follow through the faith options given to me y birth …
I wonder ..
Jalsa, Mumbai Nov 22/23, 2013 Fri/Sat 1:59 am
Shooting at Mehboob Studios - an institution by itself, developed and made by the great Mehboob Khan, producer director of such great eminence ..’Mother India’ his greatest among many others ..
So many memories of the films made here and shot under exciting and at times strange circumstances ..
It was here that I was first brought to by the late Nargis ji, when I was contemplating entering films. There is a recording studio on the first floor of a separate building, and Sunil Dutt saheb was dubbing for the film ‘Padosan’ …
Years later the studio became almost a home for me with so many films being shot there - Majboor, Raaste ka Patthar, Don, Suhaag, Naseeb, Black, Agneepath … oh dear so many many more … !!
The recording studio has been scrapped .. I sang my very first song for film here ..’mere paas aao mere doston..’ from ‘Natwarlal’ here .. to day it has been turned into a small Tv recording center for interview shows.. the turning tide of entertainment… those make up rooms on the first floor, which once housed Nargis ji, Dilip Saheb, Dev Anand .. and many greats ..
What stories we would get if only those walls of the studios could talk … the excellence of creativity of the stalwarts, musicians, directors, crew ..now no one uses the make up rooms … they all have their personal vanity vans … a process started by me years ago when Manmohan Desai gifted me the very first van in the Industry …
Farah Khan and ShahRukh show me some rushes of ‘HNY’ and it looks so grand and big and exciting .. and lots of fun .. !!
Off again to be with Agastya in Delhi for his birthday tomorrow … he enters ‘teen’ territory … but heck .. he was just born the other day and we were all rushing from different parts of the country to the Breach Candy Hospital for the delivery …
The time lines of work are getting congested and extremely busy .. films and Tv and KBC and endorsements, and music compositions .. but it is such a joy to be anticipating the next day of work ..
Right now … panicking over the Penguin Lecture that I have to give ..
Jalsa, Mumbai Nov 21/22, 2013 Thu/Fri 1:02 AM
At the French , IFCCI, the ambassadorial presence, music from the fusion of Indian classical and local French La Reunion island, north of Mauritius .. french cuisine, and island music .. french english accents abounding, clinking of champagne toasts for greater friendship and understanding between the two countries .. and then au revoir !!
In the presence of my Father, at the inauguration of the Rural Electrification programme under the aegis of the HRB Trust and Urja Foundation, along with the cooperation of many larger companies and outfits - the UN, LIC and several important corporates .. french cuisine, and island music .. french english accents abounding, clinking of champagne toasts for greater friendship and understanding between the two countries .. and then au revoir !!
A pensive ‘BhootNath Returns’ …
The pressures of time and the mandatory presence at various social commitments have coerced me to be short, cryptic and almost without thought and mind in my communications with all ..
Much develops in a day .. much needs attention, and much needs to be thought about .. not just about the work, but on many aspects of the personal ..
The recurring pain and the inability to be able to feel normal is such a debilitating handicap .. it is unacceptable to me to be professional and yet be unconcerned about the physicality of it all … if one then the other must needs be one too .. in order and in keeping with the requirements it demands .. a sportsman requires to be fit .. an actor needs to be similar. Their activities may be dissimilar, but their attitudes and attention of what is needed must perforce be similar !!
There are pressures too for the attendance at various speaking forums, and that preparation requires a calm mind, a dedicated thought and a much focused subject of content … my own capabilities limit me to nothingness, which is just what the fear is .. I often refuse these occasions but the force of their insistence is all pervasive ..
And when the forum is as important as the Penguin Lecture, it sends many a shudder to many ..
Stay with me for a while in patience .. give me the time to express myself in greater connect .. for that is what I love the most ..