Jalsa, Mumbai Nov 24, 2013 Sun/Mon 12 : 14 am
The Nargis .. its color in white and orange …it simple beauty, its freshness, its perfumed smell .. its lingering presence … its attraction, its presence in our lives, or of those that live in and around it … simply the greatest ..
And then the Sunday crowds .. !! Always a joy to be with them ..
and then to bed for the work tomorrow ..
Sopaan, New Delhi Nov 23, 2013 Sat 11:45 PM
Luminosity on head and neck
Joining the revelry on dancing deck ..
Birthday dude is covered in hood
Others bringing in the generous mood …
वर्ष नव, हर्ष नव
जीवन उत्कर्ष नव ..
Agastya's birthday … enters his 'teen' … here to wish him … back tomorrow … the undulating lanes and streets and locations of Delhi … the years spent here in extreme formative periods ..
Am I a true representative of this great land .. I am born from Uttar Pradesh and Sikh Punjab, in Allahabad middle class … 14 years later I shift to the hills of Naintal, and resident in Delhi … school and college and university all for the 15 odd years there .. working at first job in Bengal, Kolkata and then 45 years almost in Mumbai with film …
So where do I belong … never ever did I debate this point … for I am Bharatiya, an Indian !
A universal Indian in many respects .. my wife comes from Bengal, my brother marries into Sindh, my son marries into Mangalorean and Karnataka regions, my daughter into industrial Punjabi … so where do I describe myself from other than the fact that I am Indian …
Does it really matter where and what my region is ? Does it really matter whether I speak the multiple languages of the nation ? or follow through the faith options given to me y birth …
I wonder ..
Jalsa, Mumbai Nov 22/23, 2013 Fri/Sat 1:59 am
Shooting at Mehboob Studios - an institution by itself, developed and made by the great Mehboob Khan, producer director of such great eminence ..’Mother India’ his greatest among many others ..
So many memories of the films made here and shot under exciting and at times strange circumstances ..
It was here that I was first brought to by the late Nargis ji, when I was contemplating entering films. There is a recording studio on the first floor of a separate building, and Sunil Dutt saheb was dubbing for the film ‘Padosan’ …
Years later the studio became almost a home for me with so many films being shot there - Majboor, Raaste ka Patthar, Don, Suhaag, Naseeb, Black, Agneepath … oh dear so many many more … !!
The recording studio has been scrapped .. I sang my very first song for film here ..’mere paas aao mere doston..’ from ‘Natwarlal’ here .. to day it has been turned into a small Tv recording center for interview shows.. the turning tide of entertainment… those make up rooms on the first floor, which once housed Nargis ji, Dilip Saheb, Dev Anand .. and many greats ..
What stories we would get if only those walls of the studios could talk … the excellence of creativity of the stalwarts, musicians, directors, crew ..now no one uses the make up rooms … they all have their personal vanity vans … a process started by me years ago when Manmohan Desai gifted me the very first van in the Industry …
Farah Khan and ShahRukh show me some rushes of ‘HNY’ and it looks so grand and big and exciting .. and lots of fun .. !!
Off again to be with Agastya in Delhi for his birthday tomorrow … he enters ‘teen’ territory … but heck .. he was just born the other day and we were all rushing from different parts of the country to the Breach Candy Hospital for the delivery …
The time lines of work are getting congested and extremely busy .. films and Tv and KBC and endorsements, and music compositions .. but it is such a joy to be anticipating the next day of work ..
Right now … panicking over the Penguin Lecture that I have to give ..
Jalsa, Mumbai Nov 21/22, 2013 Thu/Fri 1:02 AM
At the French , IFCCI, the ambassadorial presence, music from the fusion of Indian classical and local French La Reunion island, north of Mauritius .. french cuisine, and island music .. french english accents abounding, clinking of champagne toasts for greater friendship and understanding between the two countries .. and then au revoir !!
In the presence of my Father, at the inauguration of the Rural Electrification programme under the aegis of the HRB Trust and Urja Foundation, along with the cooperation of many larger companies and outfits - the UN, LIC and several important corporates .. french cuisine, and island music .. french english accents abounding, clinking of champagne toasts for greater friendship and understanding between the two countries .. and then au revoir !!
A pensive ‘BhootNath Returns’ …
The pressures of time and the mandatory presence at various social commitments have coerced me to be short, cryptic and almost without thought and mind in my communications with all ..
Much develops in a day .. much needs attention, and much needs to be thought about .. not just about the work, but on many aspects of the personal ..
The recurring pain and the inability to be able to feel normal is such a debilitating handicap .. it is unacceptable to me to be professional and yet be unconcerned about the physicality of it all … if one then the other must needs be one too .. in order and in keeping with the requirements it demands .. a sportsman requires to be fit .. an actor needs to be similar. Their activities may be dissimilar, but their attitudes and attention of what is needed must perforce be similar !!
There are pressures too for the attendance at various speaking forums, and that preparation requires a calm mind, a dedicated thought and a much focused subject of content … my own capabilities limit me to nothingness, which is just what the fear is .. I often refuse these occasions but the force of their insistence is all pervasive ..
And when the forum is as important as the Penguin Lecture, it sends many a shudder to many ..
Stay with me for a while in patience .. give me the time to express myself in greater connect .. for that is what I love the most ..
Jalsa, Mumbai Nov 20, 2013 Wed 5:49 pm
Finished work early and am quickly on to my second most important work for the day .. my communication with my Ef ..
Just two quick thoughts or comments .. as I rush now to the IFCCI , the Indo French Chamber of Commerce and Industry function, which perhaps is also not just commemorating the commerce associations between India and France but, I believe giving pride of place to 100 years of the existence of Indian Cinema …
And then … that Balki and I are getting together again for a film, which shall star Dhanush and KamalHaasan’s second daughter, along with yours truly .. that is all I can reveal now .. story in keeping with Balki is also quite unique and different … but more of that later ..
Oh ! And Shoojit Sircar has given me his script to read and that is also up for a shoot early next year and has hopefully Parineeti Chopra and Irfaan Khan in it …
And lastly and most importantly .. PLEASE PLEASE do not miss the last finale episode of KBC .. think its on Dec 1st .. it is … well … shall leave it you to decide ..
BUT what I am most excited about is that most of the Ef that came on set for that recording are all prominently seen in the show .. close up and all .. yeeeaaaahhhhhh !!
Love you all ..
See you later at night .. thats if the French do not keep me back too late ..
Jalsa, Mumbai Nov 19/20, 2013 Tue/Wed 12 : 26 am
Feeling the stress and strain of work and other social commitments .. there is far too much on the plate right now … not complaining but telling … telling on my time management and hours to be spent in the repairing of the story upstairs, the brain ..
I will rest .. and then elaborate tomorrow ..
Rubina Mulchandani : happy birthday and all our love and good wishes ..
ps : the high for the day … commissioning of the rural electrification programme as promised on my birthday last month, under the aegis of Urga Foundation and HRB Foundation .. a feeling of great pride to be seated by the side of my Father’s portrait, in an act that would have pleased him too !!
Jalsa, Mumbai Nov 18/19, 2013 Mon/Tue 1:14 am
The emotions of the Ef are difficult to bear, especially when they express distress and sadness. This platform is for happy people ; for us to be together in laughter and togetherness .. in moments of trial and tribulations, unwanted circumstances .. ugliness from the distorted world … pain and agony, hurdles and misfortunes !!
I can understand the conditions of many that bear in life what they should not be bearing … but there is no relief for anyone from some of the situations in our lives, that shall keep occurring from time to time. The search for the moment when pleasant thoughts shall abide within us, may just not be the ideal chasm of happiness …
Pleasantness will not perhaps deliberately move or take measured steps into your vicinity or your territory. It will need to be created .. pulled out from wherever it is residing, and pushed to become a part of you .. that and only that will be the route to be taken. An invitation for its presence within you may take time, may never happen, or happen with a certain degree of resentment .. we do not wish that for anyone … we wish that it be pursued, troubled and chased for, until it becomes a part of you.
Your smile shall have to built by the usage of the muscles that belong to your face and mouth, not anyone else’s … period !!
So … a cheer for all those that come to the sets of ‘Bhootnath Returns’ .. for occupying my ‘vanity’ with your large heartedness and love, and leaving behind that whiff of a family head in gratitude.
OTSP : ‘Off To Sachins Party’, was a most humbling experience .. where the great master gave us the generosity of his hospitality, and the space and time to speak a few words for him at the time of his departure from the world of cricket ..
The members of his team India, his friends through the ages, his family, seniors, contemporaries … all there to glow in the shadow of one of India’s shining icons .. Sachin Tendulkar !
Thank you Sachin for making us all proud to be an Indian !!
With love and more …
WORDS FOR SACHIN’S PARTY ON HIS RETIREMENT AND BHARAT RATNA AT
WATERSTONES CLUB, SAHAR/ NOV 18, 2013 9 PM
Congratulations Sachin , first for this great honour of the Bharat Ratna – there could not have been a more fitting occasion to decorate you with this highest civilian honour.
Mention the name Sachin Tendulkar in any part of the country, or in the cricketing world, and an immediate smile or a gasp in awe erupts. That to me is the quality of his presence in our lives.
Question the condition of a match in progress where India is playing and the first thing you ask is … ‘Sachin khel raha hai’ … ‘bat karne aaya’ … ‘kitne run banaye’ ..
The situation of the game is secondary.
The news of his retirement stopped many a heart beat including mine. It was as though a portion of our system was leaving us for good. Many admirers and masters of the game, must have felt the same. Some perhaps, with due respect, breathing a sigh of relief, because they would not have to face his brilliance as an adversary.
I am not qualified technically or professionally to comment on his style and craft as far as the game is concerned, but when I am asked to think back on him, there is just one thought that comes across – where was I and what was I doing at the age of 16 ! And I do not need to think any further. At an age when we struggling how to button up our trousers, he was facing some of the fiercest bowling attacks ever seen, and coming out victorious !
Epithets like ‘legend’ and ‘icon’ are not enough to describe his glory. Fresh words shall have to be introduced in dictionaries to describe his worth.
History shall change its chapters with time … but time and history shall never be able to change what Sachin has meant to all of us.
Thank you Sachin for making us proud to be an Indian !!
Jalsa, Mumbai Nov 17, 2013 Sun 8:25 pm
Not a pleasant site to see the Ef at the Sunday audience getting crushed and going through the pain and struggle among the crowds .. I often wonder what they achieve by doing so, and I shall continue to urge them to not indulge in this any further .. but … I know what the answer shall be .. so I remain away from any further comment .. !!
A relatively restful day .. but a day of many thoughts .. thoughts come easily .. they are the most silent and non controversial elements within us .. they challenge our imagination most of the time .. they design the most beautiful and the most horrific thoughts at times … but since they remain within, they remain within .. thank fully ..
Many would argue that thoughts at times need to be live and attainable, much like aspirational dreams. But they generally have different connotations .. some you wish had not had the audacity to form within you !!
At times you wish that your imagination had not travelled so rapidly and with such speed … there are times though that work inversely to this process .. why does the mind think the way it does at times .. is that indicative of desire, want, inclusion … what ??
I do not have answers to this … and often I am happy that I do not .. !
A little battery operated ‘buggy’ that transported me through my days of pain and surgical procedures, and one that I brought home, for leisure, has become the temptation that I can now lure the ‘little one’ with. The softness of her body as she leans about you, when I move in a confined space for a ride with her, brings a serenity in her. Its almost therapeutic. A most active child, restless to visit objects that attract her, suddenly becomes calm and in quiet gentleness … it is undoubtedly the most loveable moment for any elder .. it certainly was for me ..
There is a certain joy in acknowledging the accomplishments of another .. I did so today for ‘Ram Leela’, the film and its glorious cast and crew .. with Sanjay Leela Bhansali, with Deepika and Ranveer and Supriya and Richa .. all that have made this film a most memorable experience for me .. I have watched it 3 times over in the last 24 hours and still desire more .. those late hours that you have been noticing on timelines of this extraordinary medium, is so because of this most enjoyable activity of mine .. so I wrote to them and sent them flowers and spoke to some and the delight that it gives me in doing so cannot be explained …
I relish the professionalism of those of this generation … I am in awe of their accomplishments in such short period .. the sincerity and the absolute correct note in their early performances is incredible .. how they are able to get the tone balance and graph of the characters they play to perfection is a mystery to me, and I shall always laud them for it .. they are truly the brightest future of cinema in India .. and I am filled with pride that I form a small portion of this fraternity …
Each Friday or a couple of Fridays brings out a revelation in today’s cine world .. we live in the best of times, and I am fortunate that I am alive to see, witness and applaud the undoubted talents of this young ..
The dexterity, understanding and projection of all that this generation does is awe inspiring ..
I wish to be inspired all the time ..
Jalsa, Mumbai Nov 16/17, 2013 Sat/Sun 3 : 08 am
Dubai … desert and barren land some 25 years ago, now a green forested region .. amazing what zeal and vision can do ..
Familiar iPad .. ha hah ..
The moment of genius that was talked of the previous night was the effect of the film ‘Ram Leela’, Sanjay Leela Bhansali’s brilliance at its peak. In the past 24 hours have been submerged in its effect three times .. three times, and still wanting more..
I wonder what it is at times .. is it just age, or what ! Effects such as this remain longer than most others .. do I see more than what needs to be seen … I wonder and wonder often .. BUT … I shall remain with the thought and the feel .. that is mine, and my feel .. it shall not get polluted by any other .. or the perceptions of others .. I must believe what I breathe and remain honest to it .. so yes I am committed to it .. it moves me like no other, and must I care if it does any other or not .. it is a human feature though to seek appreciation from another on what you impresses you .. it is the loneliness of your taste that at times seems to isolate ..
Surely one must have the independence of choice … !!
What chord it connects with .. what strains it excites .. does it really matter for the other than the self .. NO it doesn’t .. !!
I shall be what I believe to be myself in the self .. strong in thought and in its ingenuity ..
Good night .. and my love … ‘Laal Ishk’ tearing me up ..
Ritz Carlton Hotel, Dubai Nov 15, 2013 Fri 10:10 am local time
I am back .. I am in the middle of genius .. I am in complete and unparalleled ecstasy .. I will speak as soon as I am able to .. it shall tonight, or morning, whatever …
But bear ..